Pull people down, DB, never, you pull people out of their darkness, you are an amazing person.
So very sorry you feel like you do. I just read your post and my tears are for you DB, I know I don't have much in the way of helping you, and, don't know what to say to you to help with your downer. Soul hugs 🤗🤗
Right now it's like the blind (me) trying to show/tell the (sighted) you can do this, I'm not sure if the depression from BP is the same, as depression from other mh issues, what I mean to say is, there different types of "IT" like the different types of headaches, stomach bugs etc, I know I'm rambling but I don't like to see you hurting so much.. It's late or should I say early 2.52am, to be precise,
Distraction is good but only temporary, I'm doing it now, by typing this little note to you, trying to stop my dark thoughts and trying to think of ways to distract you and give you some well needed support, give your "Mind a holiday". WK, tony used this term once to me, I like it.
DB, I've never "met " anyone who is as positive as you are, hang in there hun, WK suggested Leo Rojas, Der einsome Hirte, to listen to for distraction, it's an Indian (American I think) playing the Pan Flute, beautiful and calming, maybe give this a go. tbh I've spent my entire day with earplugs in, music, maybe a bit to loud, trying to shut my mind up, but for me today, the music lost.
Trying to bring our positives out front from behind the negatives, keeps us down I think until a pin hole is found, so the positives can squeeze through a little at a time until it bursts through, and the positives start to cloud the negatives, then "IT" begins to loose and positive is the dominant thinker,
Our thoughts ( negatives ) won't bring happiness, but their will be no happiness ( positives ) without thought,
Get plenty of sleep, fresh air and exercise when you can, and try to eat healthy, Be strong, hard talk, positives,rest, distraction, and above all else take care of yourself.
I'm not much of a talker, helping wise but, I just wanted you to know that I do care about you,as others do here as well.
Now I'm totally exhausted, looks like I'm gonna have to give in to sleep tonight...Sleep peacefully DB,🌈🦋🦋🌈🤗.
kind thoughts only,