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  1. demonblaster
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    7 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster
    Hey my/our beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone 👋

    Louie how's da family my friend...(bit too hard a slap on da back) ... I'm your longest surviving friend man ...I wanna keep my head here...had my hair done tuvver day... so be cool boss...Hey...haven't seen lou-e-gee for too long and won't be fluffing around wit his name again either... is he still in da business...I got some things in the fire too louie.. I say things cause I dunno whether it's pokers or what ya see louie... so Mums Da Word,..My good man ... hey can I have a drag on your big fat cigar Louie...OH yeh good job my man...so I'm over da top of the world Louie...got in touch wit a long lost friend ...yeh we gunna meet up when we go to stay with my brother Bruno you know him...I was gunna go later cause I wanna shift the beef but too excited ...hey ya don't tell da boys ok Louie ...so I'll get off at least some Ov da kilos...so if I see my udder friend as well dat I stay with like usual...you know Polly...I call her dat cause I can't fink of her name...so, Da boyz would be jealous if they knew but they not gunna...which reminds me gotta pack my rocket launcher in case we meet up with Busters gang...lucky my 🍫 choccy eating fingers 🤘 growin back from our last bust up...I got one at da op shop...and hey...oh...yeh...I've been workin out wit gummy...shame his teeth don't grow back too...so louie I got da happies shakin my soul...but truth be known it's only in my dreams workin out cause see my uvver foot it got shot up by that 3 yr old and her water pistol ... but me I'm gunna tell my luvly Dr...hey keep dat quiet too...don't wan da boyz knowing I think he's a class act ok...also later gunna go at them politely see till day suss my back trubbles...I know & so dus my bbff Ginger who looks out for me SO good Louie...can't do it wifout her...she's my light along wif Mr Deebi known in the club as Mr beautiful...so da plans feet first ...see I'm walkin like I got one leg shorter cause it canes Louie every dammed step...and sometimes in between...good otc helps da pain...& woke up hard crying ..my head was like it had been shot... but dat was the other day...I've just gone through waking 5 days straight with full on pain near migraines...geez Louie I tell ya...gimme another head and I'll polish your Pink shoes...Hey Louie give my luv and heart to Ginger ok ...nah man ...put it away...you know I love her to bits...she's my lifer bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩💜😚🤗
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    8 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi...

    I will be back later this evening/night..

    I really popped in to ask you if you posted the wrong post on here...as it’s to your beautiful friend Louie...

    Love always dearest bbff..💜🦋🌹.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🐇🐿🐛🐉🍭

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    8 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey is dat you my bbff Ginger. I was wit the boys see so I had to slip into character.

    Don't think mania just felt like mixing it up a little.

    Love you shweetart always hope you're just peachy 😉

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    9 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Sorry I didn’t get back to you yesterday...I mowed my lawns, and a few other things and was so sore on my back..and exhausted...I fell asleep on the lounge...Silly me..

    Awe I’m sorry about your daily migraines..and crying through the pain...so much wish I could be there with you and our cloud soft cloth...I will have to reach Mr. Deebi..how to use it....and where to get the magical water that I use with it....poor honey..are they gone now...Gee I hope so....Ummm..Are you drinking at least 1.5 litres of straight plain old water...Yep I’m a broken record..but I notice like me..you head hurts more in warmer/hotter times of year then the cooler ones...

    I hope your feeling okay honey...Sleeping as much as possible to strengthen your beautiful self...

    Hows our cute kitties going through this heat..I might bring mine down to yours for a visit as soon as I can..maybe the gentle sea breeze will make them feel better...There’s something healing in the salty sea air...and the salty ocean water...one day..gosh I hope so 😢..getting harder..

    Wishing you a beautiful and peaceful night tonight dearest bbff...Need My bbff time..or I’m not good..you give me light precious friend..Love you heaps and for eternity..💚🐻🤗...🐉🐛🕷🐜...yadimh..Please Dear Deebi..pubaok..I need you..🐻🤗🕊🦋💭🚜💨.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🕊🌱🦋💫🌈☄️

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    9 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey Bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and ☺

    Not a worry hun. At least you had a very good reason.
    I worry about you doing all that work. Glad you had a big sleep

    Hope your back settles yikes.
    Heat helps relax the muscles.

    T'was a zany gangster post. So much to tell you & forget.
    I thought post in bits & felt zany. S'ok marbles still there 🤹‍♀️ I often think of you once doing a James Cagney I think. A friend and I on forums mucked around with gangster style was fun

    I've heard & believed Bursitis is v.painful.
    I've got in my foot.
    The other to keep doing excercises very gently. Told him I overdid it before he said probs stretched a ligament/tendon. Only short walking to avoid Bursitis foot seizing up in my words & rest otherwise.
    Think the last 2 days it's slightly easing but not much walking. Swine!

    Thanks lovey you're so caring thx it finally came good. The flatter pillow was working a treat mostly. Since recliner sleeps it's going bonkers.
    Today ok it seems they sit in waiting. Can come on in seconds.

    Still need a lot more sleep.
    Moods good now. Dropped savagely other day. Told Mr 😍 we went for a sleep but it's happened before thought I'd wake worse.

    Him just being his beautiful self we often chat when we lay down about anything it was lovely and completely cleared my mood to normal. It was in a very hard place.
    Dear love he is.

    Yes drinking plenty hun actually having a bit of fluid, have to watch that. Forgot to say to GP.

    Had a huge whinge that they're missing something with my back.
    Told him the hard truth as I told them.

    This guy has compassion is supportive explains etc.
    I'm unsure where we go from here.
    Yes Grandy usually a shooting pain goes across my back then bulging disc. This stuffs way closer to the nerve. Can't go through it again made that VERY clear.

    Oh the kitties I got a widdle tiny fan for them so they have no choice but my lap nya ha ha ...cuddles...

    Oh Grandz it gets me so much...btw love you and the furs to come and stay anytime. We can do beach walking talking loven our time...H*O*P*E* ...Oh so much I hope 😢

    Ditto Grandy I too need my bbff time it's so calming and secure.
    Such a fantastic friendship supporting and a strong close love. Gold 👩‍❤️‍👩💜

    Oh Soo so happy about getting in touch again with a long time Beautiful friend.
    We're goin to brothers in late April can't wait. Easier to meet from there than here

    Beddy time lovely thank you dear friend 😚🤗🕊⚘🤝

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    12 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi,

    Oh lass you are in wars aren't you... if your Drs can't see what is wrong with your back then they better start looking harder... let them know you will let your ferocious bb friends loose on them if they don't...

    As a former (thank the stars for menopause) regular migraine sufferer I know how it drags you down & you don't care how, you just want it to stop... I wish I knew something that guaranteed to make them go away... you can by cool pads to lay your head on... the cold can help for some sufferers.

    It sounds lovely you having your visit to your brother to look forward to in April & catching up with friends.

    I hope your foot comes good soon.

    Hugs

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    12 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..lovely Paws and everyone...🤗

    Awe Yes bursitis is very painful Deebi...I have it in the hip..When it hurts a lot, anti inflammatory meds work the best..I know you cannot take those..I think the next best thing would be a soak of your bursitis foot into some cool/cold water..or better still a nice soak or slow walk just in the water where the waves crash in to the soft cold sand...I say cold, because cold refuses swelling, and if your bursitis is hurting it means they are inflamed or swollen,,,,

    I like the way you and mr beautiful talk of a night when laying down in bed..and it can change your mindset into a calmer one..He is so precious to you and..um me.,me because I know that he cares and loves you very much...and that makes me so appreciative for you to ave him in your life

    You were very brave telling your GP. How it is with your back...I hope he will investigate further for you...

    You make a good gangster..but not in real life honey..your to sweet and honest for that...here on BB mucking around you are the best gangster I know...I was afraid that I was reading someone else’s post...after you explained I was all good again,,,,

    Paws like you I use a cold wet towel around my neck..if that doesn’t work in an hour or so..I run the cold shower water over my head...and freeze myself to cool down my body temperature to ease the migraine.....They really do knock us around a lot....

    I can only imagine how excited you are to see your brother again....and his family,,,I think if I remember he has an older Labrador and a widdle new puppy..at your last visit..Wish I could go with you...but I’m afraid of flying..now if I had been born with dragon wings..woohoo I would fly next to the planes windows and give everyone a wave..😂😂

    I hope your day was good today...I am lazy today..no motivation at all.,,Yesterday I made a large pot of fried rice..enough for 4 nights..so at least I don’t have to worry much about cooking if I don’t want to....You’re all Welcome to join me...

    Deebi,,,,pubaok.,yadimh.,onsd..never loose hope.🌈.much love to you my bbff..🐻🤗💚🕊🐉&💭always..

    My love, care and hugs dear lovely Paws and everyone...🤗🦋💜..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.....🌜💫☄️🌛..

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    12 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear Paws 🐾 Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers hiyaz 🖐

    Hi girls thank you so much for your caring posts and beautiful support. Lovely seeing youse 🤗

    Phoo had another horrid head space for a fair while yesterday. Wasn't angry frustrated or anything but how on earth do you explain something making you feel so stinkin horrible. I think if I could understand why it came like that... Grandy you know that awful headspace aye. Last nights sleep helped.

    Think I had 3 separate manias, one was before I went to sleep, was giggling away at things in the past it was lovely although short. The first was longer maybe 3/4 days and last maybe halfa day. 2 mood drops quite deep but not into depression as such but was struggling.

    Had a lot of trouble yesterday putting sentences & words together. Couldn't think on some things jyst my head couldn't be bothered.

    Backs 95 % better thanks girls being very careful still. Big relief that.

    Good news too, foots starting to ease right off wow thank goods. GP said could be what I thought from recliner my foot may have been a while in a funny position. Yes Grandy I thought of your hip do at times wondering how you're going.

    It's unbelievable how long it takes to get over the deep tiredness for a mild BP. Not long up from a big sleep still tired as sigh but getting there.

    Love woofa being pleased the cows being back how gorgeous and Grandy little fur having a bath 😂 then jumping all over you Oh no hun that's halarious tho.

    Great memory about doggies Grandy.

    Oh I didnt opt for anti flams. So glad its easing off wow.

    Paws the migraines are shockers had a good last 3 days phew. Good yours seem to have settled.

    Thank you lovely friends it means a lot you both being there 🤗

    Love to you both dear friends. Hope you're both in a good or better place. Often 🗯

    Floss beautiful sending much love. That'll never change. Deepest respect care and appreciation for a Golden solid friendship. Always 🗯👩‍❤️‍👩💜🕊🤝☄⚘

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    13 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Paws and readers

    Hi. Just wanted to update and may not be as much here over next 3 days.

    You just can't relax can you. Thought I was coming out and yet another dose of the horribles. Another sleep helped but still not good but much better. More manageable atm. Sheez

    Talking of both being better. Had a headache most of the day, will need a 3rd lot of meds by the feel it's not budging.

    Back a bit stirred up but slightly different area. Should settle I think.

    We going to Mils Grandz for a couple. First to Mr Deebs for a night.

    Planning for Xmas too at Mils & lates lovely family (mine too through defacto) but we'll see how it goes. Tricky with transport around that time but we can get there and back.

    Dunno seem to be still mostly in withdrawal. Hard to figure out why but at least very happy in our 😍 bubble. Would be a huge bigger mess if I didnt have that sweetlove 💗

    So this BP i'm still in. Still tired but nearly back to normal. The downs came each time out of the Blue.

    Really bummed think I got it wrong again in BP. Thought I'd be catching up with good friend but unsure now,. At least for a while I was excited and so looking forward to. Pfftt. That's life huh. Probs go to brothers later now. Bugger it!

    SO sick of my body and mind causing so much stinkin pain! If it's not one it's the bloody other!

    If I knew what the triggers were might be able to work on them. Know of a couple

    Foots still improving.

    Nigh nite lovelies sorry pretty down post. I'll be ok soon till the next time.

    Love Grandy always 👩‍❤️‍👩🗯👭😢💜🗯

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    14 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Awe Deebi...you’re not sounding the best precious friend..I think it will do you a lot of good to get away from your place for a while...you have had such a bad year this year, with a lot of bad news...I think you have been a tower of strength for yourself and now that tower is slightly bending...and needs a break away for a replenish and refresh of your poor tired body and mind..

    Im very pleased your going to spend some time with mil...I hope you can be a comfort for each other over the next couple of days...but please remember dear bbff..to look after yourself while your away...I am a bit concerned that this will be a very emotional visit..Sweetheart if you need to cry..it’s okay to do so....

    My heart goes out to you..with your migraines/ sore back/ feet..I so much wish you didn’t have so much pain...If you remember and need it...Please take your pillow...sometimes it’s hard to sleep on an unfamiliar one..

    Im going to miss you dear friend..I’m always here for you if you need to release your feelings...Please look after you and be gentle on you....like I would be towards you precious bbff...

    Much love..💜💚...with many big hugs🤗🤗🤗..Our golden thread...superglued...from soul to soul....💚💫💚..always here for you...🤝👀👂. 🙏🦶..never letting go...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🕊🌱🌱🦋🌈💫

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    15 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey my darlin bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers 🖐

    You're a lovely lady Grandy thank you for your warm caring support always dear friend 🤗

    Geesh 3 batches of darks. You feel like you're swamped with such a mix of unexplainable (not sure if that's a word. Is now 😄) feelings pulling you down. Nearly everything I've learnt disappears but we get through everytime no matter how mucked up we get.

    Anyhoo those horrids are behing me. Was awful also PTSD was around a lot esp deep sadness for my dear late love. It mainly concentrated on him with way less other memories that seemed more manageable. Wonder if I'm coping more with the majority of other stuff but lates situation was more recent and so much went on. Not many scenarios, I stomp them and don't listen anymore.

    Almost back to normal then it's helpful having a few days more recovery. They're still full on and energy sapping

    Yikes we shopped today which means some shorter walking but ok distance killed my foot but have to occasionally. See how it is in a couple.

    Was wanting to do a couple before Xmas with mil but we decided against actually was going to stay 3 at Mr Deebis before but we're just doing a couple over Xmas. Glad though cause this BP was hard I prefer to recover at home. Shame but also good for full recovery.

    Thanks lovey for the solid thoughts. Yes going to take the pillow, shouldn't take too much room it's pretty flat ☺

    Thank you beautiful I too will never let go. Soul2Soul (S2S) 💚💫💚 magic 🦄 lady. Love our awesome friendship.

    Always 👀 watching over you

    Always 🗯 thoughts

    Always 💰 treasure our Golden time (can't see a treasure chest anywhere)

    Always 🤝

    Always bbffs 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Always deep love & appreciation 💜

    Sleep well everyone. SO grateful for here and the beautiful people that make it work 💗

    🕊

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    15 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi,

    Lass just a thought... I wonder if your current struggles with your downs perhaps might be being worse because of your subconscious worries about your mil... however much you think you know the degree of your worry for her... it will be percolating away below your conscious awareness. That might be why your late love has been such a focus lately.

    Oh wouldn't it be lovely if we could trade in the bits of our bodies that give us grief... don't give up hope lass... there must be something that can be done to ease & hopefully fix your problems.. sometimes it just means finding a doctor who isn't blinkered.

    Be gentle with yourself

    love & hugs

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    15 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster
    Hi DB,

    Pain's the pits and I know you are managing the best way you know how.

    I have a lot of confidence in your ability.

    Your late love will always be with you. It's awesome that his family and you are planning on getting together.

    Sounds like you've been on quite the journey lately and are aware of the BP stages. It can't be easy.

    You're doing great to get through it each and every day.

    My feet too have been hurting when I walk too fast or far...still have nerve pain or stiffness or whatever. The joys of our lives lol.

    Here's an early present 🎁 for you, bought it the other day.

    Really happy for you that you have your man beside U...

    Keep going and never lose hope.

    🌈 Here's a rainbow for better days....

    🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒🐒
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    22 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    A little birds told me your sun burn is still sore to touch..poor bbff....What am I to do with you...hmmm..

    I only meant a little sun...You see..because you have such a beautiful heart and it shines so brightly through your soul when your with your friends and Mr. Deebi...That your light produces a kind of light magnet that draws the sun’s rays into the water..then bounces of onto your poor skin....Now be a good girl and listen to Aunty Grandy...Please smother it in Alovera cream..if not then vitamin E cream...and please...please drink plenty of water, to rehydrate your skin...Apprentice Nurse 👩‍⚕️ Aunty Grandy is finished now..

    How is your mental health honey..and you Physical health as well?...

    This might sound strange...My late hubby was always having back outs...pinched nerves mostly..and pain for weeks after...anyway, before we fully moved in to the country house he bought..we had no bed..but we had a mattress that was left their...We slept with the mattress straight on the floor..and his back he said was feeling like it was getting better...um not sure if I mentioned before about mattress on the floor..

    How was your trip Deebi...did you enjoy yourselves and get some hello hugs and goodbye hugs..I hope so their comforting...

    I was upset yesterday night..it was so cloudy and I wanted to see the Star of David in real life..but couldn’t because of the clouds...Was it cloudy out your way?..

    Not long until Christmas Day now...I will be finishing off your gift soon....I wish I could give you a for real gift 💝.😢,.

    Wow I’m a chatterbox..I’ll let you go now, but before I do go...I must tell you..that I have much love and care for you bbff..inside my heart and soul....💚🦋🌹🐻🤗🌈🤝👀..

    Sleep dear friend..with some beautiful dreams of unicorns, fairies, angels and everything magical...

    Hello lovely Paws and lovely Magic.,sending you my love and care...with hugs..and everyone else reading here.💜🦋🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    23 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi lovely Paws 🐾 Magic 🐒 bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thank you all so much for your time support and care lovely friends.

    Paws very good thoughts it could well be about zoning directly on late love.
    I had some not many other hurts popping up too.

    Oh as the days go by trading our parts is very tempting isnt it.

    My backs been pretty rough again lately needing strong meds today couldn't walk properly but mostly ok now.
    At Mr Deebis each nite it felt like a nail was being slammed into the spine, geez it hurt. Ok here at home but L) side somethings very wrong. Cripes!
    My GPs great. Think next out I'll see him. Gave up seeing doctors they may as well have given lolly water. This one gave better he understands the need.
    Tske good care lovey 🤗

    Thanks Magic it's as you know very hard going being in pain.

    Woke 3 times this a.m with a wicked bad headache. I coughed with one which turned it into a throbbing migraine. Temporary thanks goods.

    Yes a lovely family and true my lates always with me. You never stop loving and my beautiful understands that which is awesome. He also knows how deeply I love him the sweetheart and him me 😍 he's precious.

    My foots easing thank goodness have to rest and short walks. Hope yours are easing too.

    Oh thanks love the pressy. I'll hang it up on the wall.

    Beaut Rainbow huns 🤗

    Hey there my gorjy bbff 😀 I hope you're well honeyheart.

    Yes the worst of the sunburns over but still Red oops. Boyo. Love Aunty Grandies advivce ☺ girlfriend across the Rd has some Aloe Vera too.

    I had trouble on Mr Deebis good mattress.

    Trip was really good thanks lovey. Going Mils tomoz eve back Boxing day early 🤤...😲 thats a shock yawn.

    Mh ok thanks. I've been off the AD's about 1/half wks now, the odd quicky mood but ok. See how it goes. Trying to break the withdrawing been out a bit.

    Shame missing the star of David. We've had wet but good lately. Nice being a bit cooler.

    Thanks huns always so good seeing you. Loved the unicorns and magic.

    Oh was having a horrid nightmare this morn think my mind was waking me to settle the headache, managed to yell out in n.mare Mr Debbie saved me speaking softly got me out. I couldnt yell out by making words but finally managed.

    Love you very much beautiful friend. Bbl at yours honey. PubAok lysvm always 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🍫🤗😚👭😢

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    24 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I hope so much with all my heart and soul that you enjoy you’re mother in law’s company over Christmas..I think you are made of gold dear bbff...spending Christmas with your mil,,,Please if you can..can you wish her a merry Christmas from me..and give her a gentle warm hug also for me as well....

    I am sorry about your back...I think the professionals are still learning able how our back works properly with the nerves, discs, and spine....and the best treatments for back outs, pinched nerves etc...I hope that one day very soon they will find a solution to your back pain...🤗..

    Oh no..nightmares are horrid aren’t they...I hope they stop soon...maybe listen to a nice relaxing sleep story ..My Counsellor said Sometimes nightmares come because our brain is to chatty when we fall asleep...if we can fall asleep with soft music or something to relax the mind...it helps a little....

    Merry Christmas with a Santa Christmas stocking full of my love and care for you precious bbff.💚🦋..no that’s not your 💝...tomorrow..you need to wait one more day...

    Good night and Merry Christmas bbff and everyone.linhope tomorrow is everything you want it to be..🌈🎄💝🕊.

    Love, hugs and care..💚🤗🦋..

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    Merry Christmas Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..and everyone....🤗..

    Todaybis Christmas Day...The birth of baby Jesus...and today is full of love, peace, care, giving, receiving...Now if everyday was like Christmas Day...What a wonderfully beautiful world it would be to live in....

    Santas elves have been staying at my place for 3 days now..helping me finish your Christmas gift 🎅🏻🎄 🎁 ..

    The elves borrowed Santa’s sleigh 🎅🏻🛷 ...shhhh...and took me on a magical trip behind the clouds to the Star of Bethlehem...Oh it was so beautiful...such peace radiated off it...it was a brilliant bright white with the absolute purest of gold edging around it....The star gave me permission to sit on it for a few minutes...and then Star gave me a gift...something perfect for your 💝....Then elves took me to the Crystal Caves deep in the middle of the moon...Where I received another gift..perfect for your 🎁...Then along to Saturn..Flying through the gorgeous rings circling the plant..The elves collected something else I needed from the rings around Saturn....One more stop...to the Garden of Eden.....ahh back home home....and finishing of your 💝...

    You’re 💝 is....A heart shaped pure crystal heart..inside it is a miniature brightest glowing white light Star of Bethlehem with pure gold letters...S S S...with 3 miniature diamonds on each letter..each S is encircled by a ring of Saturn, that continually slowly rotates around it...emitting a warm and peaceful feeling in your soul..This precious crystal heart with the Star of Bethlehem inside it...is hanging off the purest golden chain, so pure that it makes you feel so loved and cared for...If you hold the Crystal heart in both hands together....You hear the angels singing “In the Arms of an Angel”.....and will feel my spirit presence holding you tightly....not letting go dearest friend...

    Gifted with my love, my care, my respect, to my Spirit Soul Sister..

    Merry Christmas everyone..My kindest and most caring thoughts everyone..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🕊🌱🎄🎅🏻💝🙏..

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    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi darlin lady what an absolutely beautiful gift thank you so very much I really love it huns. Superb! Read it to Mr 😍 Mil and sil they all really liked it.

    Btw Grandy lovey so sweet you sending lovelies to mil she was so moved darl and sends her very best back to you and her love to you the dear gorgeous. You're a sweet love dear friend and she thinks about you.

    Thank you ☺🤗

    My gorgeous my prezzy to you sounds like I'm copying but not I promise. Really love yours hun it was exceptional I keep thinking of it.

    So my sweet it's also a beautiful necklace for you dear friend.

    The main part is a brilliant pure White pearl with a breathtaking marble streak capturing the eye with it's beauty. It really is striking Grandz. There's a brilliant glow radiating from it going directly into the soul of the wearer creating the most amazing sensation of complete relaxation free of stress and pain. It's been hand set in an interesting expression of eternal friendship deep love and care. The hands clasp onto the gorgeous Ruby heart shaped frame where they hold it all together tightly with strict instructions never to let go.

    This signifies to the owner they will never spend a minute alone in their lives ever again because they'll always be deeply appreciated cared about and loved unconditionally because they're one of the most beautiful deserving kind loving people around.

    Grandy thank you for such a beautiful friendship. I value and absolutely love our time.

    Many thanks for you being who you are. You're a true champion. So so glad to know and love you SSS 🤗😚👩‍❤️‍👩💜always 💗🗯always dear sweet lady.

    Hope your day was good sweetyheart ☺🕊👀 and everyone.

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    26 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....and everyone...🤗

    I love your gift to me..Pearls are beautiful..

    Pearls are the ultimate symbol for wisdom. Valued for their calming effects, pearls represent serenity, while being able to strengthen valuable relationships and convey a sense of safety. Pearls also symbolize purity, as well as integrity and loyalty.. Thank you so very much...💚..

    Not doing much today..was going to hose out a shed thingy I have out back..but it decided to rain...that job will have to wait until the rain stops..

    My neighbours son and family arrived at hers today..it’s really lovely hearing the laughter of her grandchildren...and they sound like big elephants running around in her house...🐘...

    I feel sleepy today, last night I had such a horrible dream...woke up in panic...heart racing, sweaty etc.. couldn’t get back to sleep....so might grab a nanny nap soon..and drop by BB later on this afternoon or this evening..

    Pubaok...bbff...yadimh with my live 💚 and care🦋..

    SSS deep love dearest bbff..💚👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🕊🌱.

    Love, hug and care everyone..💜🤗🦋.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    28 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi.👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone..🤗..

    Hey bbff..How are you feeling precious friend...I’m a bit concerned...a lot more then a bit concerned and thought I would call in and ask you RUOK.?...

    We had strange weather here today...sticky hot,Bethenny cloudy and muggy..then a thunderstorm or 5 and icy winds like winter...I was wondering today if the weather has a bit of bi-polar..😁...

    I so much hope those nasty headaches have chooffed off...you’ve had way too many this year..I wish I could suggest something that would stop them from starting up...Do you think that stress has a bit/lot to do with getting them?,..

    Are you getting outside for a while through the days...I have done some cleaning up outside and had some fun hosing down my verandas and shed..Oh oh..I have some tiny chillies on my chilli plants....I have never seen chillies so tiny..the best way I can describe them is they look like teeny weeny the size of a needle hole you thread the pale green cotton through...😂..Oh and I’ve got quite a few cherry tomatoes about the size of a marble and they are green...can’t wait until they ripen....

    Can’t wait until Betty gets home..I miss her..she went to her sons place..nearly 3 hours away on Thursday..not sure when she will be back home...

    I hope your okay Deebi..and your i-pad is working...No pressure to reply bbff...I just wanted to remind you that you are so special to me...and I have deep love and care for you..💚🦋🕊🌱🤗...say hello to Mr. Deebi for me, please..

    Please look after each other...it’s very important to me that you do..I’m always 👀 and 👂..and holding 🤝..with my bbff..4 eva....pubaok..yadimh..lysvm...SSS...

    My love, hugs and care..💜🤗🦋 everyone...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🕊🌱

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    29 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand
    Hey gorgeous bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone 🖐

    Huns I'm so glad you love your prezzy. Wow they have a great lot going for them don't they (Pearls) and all goods too. Interesting darl thanks for mentioning. I like that sort of stuff.

    Horrid way to wake isnt it being in a nightmare. Such a relief knowing it's hogwash. Poor love it must have been a bad one being sweaty & heart racing. Geez darl I imagine it took a while to recover from. No way to start a day for sure.

    Thanks sweety this is intermittently playing up which is annoying. Hope it doesn't konk out completely. Tried to post to you twice today was taking an age to work so I turned it off for a bit played games.

    I'm good thanks just trying to navigate through physical health. Wow no breaks.
    Backs been very hard to walk sometimes in morning, different pain.
    Headaches 🤕 near every morning waking with but move my head in the Tai Chi circle helps. Crikey.
    Have a common infection driving me nuts saw GP today.
    Cried a bit this morn just sick of the bod atm.

    Very happy with the gorgeous love 😍 dear man. I said hi to him the love and he says hi back ☺ that's his gorgeous smile.

    Thanks for being concerned sweety. Still sleeping heaps.
    Had a lovely Xmas.
    Was a shock seeing how frail dear mils become but a lovely time. We had 4 nights at Mr's place before too.

    😂 Bipolar weather. You're a classic. Love you so much 🤗

    I think they're right with headaches coming from the neck you wanna hear the cracks and grinds ... shudder!

    Getting out occassionally we walked today down a hill. Bursitis is easing but wasnt rapt in the walk lol.
    Good girl getting those jobbies done.
    Loven the Chillies and yummo cherry toms love em. Bursting that full flavour in the mouth.

    Hope not too long before Betty returns. She's and you both are very good friends to eachother.

    You too darlin you really are so special to me too. Can't imagine my life without you. Love you very much dear sss. (Love that so much)

    Have a beautiful peaceful 🕊sleep 😴 hun and any readers too.
    Thanks for your time and listening ☺ much appreciated ⚘

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝👂💚💗🙌
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    3 January 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I am so sorry I haven’t wished my bestie a Happy New Year...So If it’s okay I will now...HAPPY NEW YEAR to my BESTY BBFF in the world...

    Betty is home now..but we haven’t really had a cuppa together..she popped around mine to check on me and tell me to put my phone on as my sons were trying to contact me.....but had to go straight home...as she had things she was doing...,I might call her and see if she want company tomorrow and have a cuppa with her...

    Deebi..you said on my thread that I can talk to you if I need to..that means so much to me...thank you so very much..

    I hope you and Mr. Deebi are doing better then okay..and getting out for little walks or just hanging out the way that makes you happy...That’s important bbff.....happiness, those little things/ memories that are so precious to us that we feel a tiny burst of happiness in our soul and heart..

    Its been raining here on and off..which I do like the rain...

    What you been up to doing bbff...I have been missing you and hearing about the things you do...and how you’re feeling...Which I hope you’re feeling better then okay...How was your Christmas and New Year?...only if you want to share..no pressure precious friend...

    I gave my bird away...felt sad watching her in the cage all day..gave her to a person who has an aviery...Oh I can’t spell it...I hope she will be more happy with other birds and space enough to fly around...

    How are you Deebi?...pubaok..yadimh...and my 💭....deep sss love Deebi..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    4 January 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi there sweety bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers 🖐

    Always such beautiful caring visits.
    Thank you dear friend I love your company 😀 Thanks for HNY darlin.
    So lovely you saying besty BBFF 👩‍❤️‍👩 in the world. You too Floss 🤗

    That'd be so good having time with Betty. Hope you did huns. A dose of her would be good for you I reckon.

    Anytime lovely one. I have the world of time for you. That'll never change.

    Absolutely love my time with Mr Deebi he's such a sweetylove.

    I haven't been doing much lately, we do bits of housework but the foots a bit ouch still so walkings minimal and this blasted bizzo that I'd talk openly about but somme people might not want to hear. It's been around 2 wks now, still in pain as a result of what happens but it is slowly easing.
    A while to go yet the mongrel it's enough to drive you loopy seriously.

    Cried again this morning on waking. Sleeps been erratic because of having to get up so often. Just so over my bod theres been a constant flow for maybe 4 yrs now of varied pain.

    Good tho 2 days lately no headaches wow like a holiday.

    Backs easing still dicey but ok too atm.

    Xmas was lovely thanks sweety.
    A shock seeing how frail mils become but good seeing her the love.

    Nye we stayed home I couldn't go anywhere but as always love being with dear Mr gorgeous 😍

    And same stayed home when lovely stayed at his for church. Too painful to go anywhere. We missed eachother the gorgeous but rang and he was back in no time.

    Oh wow good of you with the Birdy I imagine you'd miss her and same. That was so thoughtful and compassionate of you Grandz.

    I'm good darl thx it's just this biz nagging at me but at least it'll heal and slowly is. Geez enough already!

    Love you heaps hun always thinking of you. So much security having such a beautiful in my life that gets it. We have so much to our friendship SSS just love it magic lady.

    Getting late so I'll see you tomoz sweetyheart. Thanks lovey ☺

    PubAok lysvm yAdimh 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🕊🌞🗯😍🤝👀🤗

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    4 January 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear DB, wiht a wave to Grandy~

    I can read what sort of a Christmas you both had, so do not have to ask.

    I think it was a great pity you could not get to church DB. Although my attitude is very different from my boyhood with a CofE Vicar as a father (temporal that is) I still find one time, midnight carols, to be an almost unearthly experience, signing strongly all the tunes of my youth.

    Sadly newer ones I've never heard of crept in and that pressure is no longer open.Plus I can only sing about one word before descending into coughing -grrr.

    I'm afraid I can sympathize with your back and probably have a pretty good guess at the unmentionable ailment that gets you up at night. A right inconvenient pain.

    I noticed you said at times you play games, can you tell me about them, are they computer games? if so would you like to say what sort? I'm afraid I've never played any though my offspring and now my grandson make up for my omission. They will play solo or against other unknown players from elswhere. These games do seem as if they could be absorbing. I look for distraction from pain, but have not gone this way as yet, fortunately I can still loose myself in a book.

    Those games also make for a hefty Xmas present :)

    One of them has music you can choose as you play it. A nice touch.

    Hope things settle down for you.

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    Hi there Croixy 🐧 bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers 👋

    Thanks Croixy for that lovely visit very appreciated ☺

    I'm having the occasional flare up with the back luckily a different pain which is no joy but fortunately they mostly only last short periods. Sometimes getting up as in standing up from the chair it takes a few seconds to stand properly. Mr Sweetheart a few times massaged parts of my back I asked for deep because it was muscle which has helped no end.

    Yip games there's so much entertainment hand eye co ordination concentration figuring out satisfaction achievement not giving up etc and more. Love em.

    On this I play a few Candy Crush Sagas which can be mindlessly played or focused on if wanted. Chances are these are not what a young blokes into. Might be more interactive types so I'm not much help soz.

    I occasionally do mind type ones to improve and think outside the box I thinks important for anyone esp with mh.

    That unexplicable back pains wicked isnt it. I suspect while the discs moving back in place it's contacting a nerve. Geez it bloody hurts. Thats settled too lately thank goods. Too much pain with backs aye.

    I've been wondering often how you're going Croixy and for ages meaning to ask.

    I like the people at this church. Theres 3 ladies I'm becoming friends with and a bloke. Others are nice too. I'm not religous but have some radical thoughts. I like a lot of bible teachings like being nice to eachother basically. Not many go here but thats ok it's easier getting to know people. I go very intermittently. The carols sound good Croix ☺ Nice memories.

    The unmentionables still lingering but slowly as in very slowly is easing tho still driving me bonkos. Still some pain but less. How I held my head through this is a mystery it nearly drove me batty, still does. Anyhoo

    So take good care Mr. I've been reading at yours tho have some to catch up on again.

    Really do hope you're in recovery Croixy. Much care 🌿

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    9 January 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Howz ya been bbff🤗?..

    Its a beautiful day here today except for the winds..

    That good about the 3 nice ladies you met at church...You make friends so easily....that’s good...Do you meet up at all outside of church for a coffee and cake.?

    Sometimes things take time to heal...I hope your unmentionable soreness, disappears for you soon...Not sure what it is..but honey just taking a wild guess here...Salt water is mother nature’s healer..especially if it’s an infection of any type....

    The owners of the property across from me, are doing some slashing somewhere..I can hear the tractor and see the dust flying into the air...If they do the area across from mine..I will be heading inside..too much dust gives me a lasting cough....Yep I’m outside this morning...admiring my crepe myrtle which is a soft pink flower and it’s covered in it..very beautiful...Do you have many trees around you or a nice peaceful park/place not far from your home that has some trees that you can sit near/under and do a bit of meditation with weightless playing on your phone...

    Deebi..I love word games and their a few on the Internet..that are not to hard to do...Word stacks..word trip is a couple I play..needs concentration to do them..I love playing Home scapes...I am in an Aussie team..and we play against other teams...I often chat to the team members when we have a tournament going...I think you would really enjoy the game....we need a few more players for our team....The overseas teams are much bigger then ours Nd they keep winning..Oh we did beat them a few times..

    Any how my bbff..I’m just rambling on mostly...feeling lonely and needed to chat to someone....

    Please enjoy your day bbff..Much love, care, respect with some giant dinosaur hugs...💚👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🕊🌱🤗🤗..

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    9 January 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and any readers 👋

    I figure we both can do with a long loving hug 🤗

    Just before bed wanted to tell you how lovely to see you.

    I'm in a BP have a few bits to chat about.

    Going to church tomoz with my dear love. So we going bed earlier.

    This mongrel biz still ha ging on a lit less overal but still there the brat!

    Loved you chatting. Want to chat back so cya tomoz dearest friend.

    So much love for my sss. Been thinking so much about how you are. You'll come back when you're ready darlin.

    Mmmm enjoy your cherry toms yummo.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝👂💤💗

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    10 January 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Yes dearest bbff...We sure could...here’s a few more..🐻🤗..

    Its okay, Dear Deebi...about replying..I know how hard it is when in BP...

    Always here for you precious friend..with my love and care..

    Enjoy your time at church with Mr.Deebi and your new friends...

    Take very good care of you..

    Love, hugs and care..Deebi and everyone...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    10 January 2021 in reply to Ggrand
    Hi sweety always love your company precious lady 👩‍❤️‍👩 and hi to other lovelies out there ☺

    Grandy I really appreciate you saying about not worrying for a reply it really is in these times very hard although todays been good.

    Wow yesterday wasn't all the time but a good chunk bloody horrid.
    I was restless felt trapped in the chest which I'm pretty sures anxiety and mood was swinging. Cried a fair bit intermittently which I'm ok with. I found I cried less on AD's but really needed a big one cause as we know BP surfaces pain and it's knocked me for a six seeing how frail mil is now. So I really let the flood gates go and sweet Mr beautiful came out and gave me a big long hug the dear love.
    Then through the day tears welled up for anything.

    Last night I was so restless but settled in the wee hrs.
    I can't bear that trapped feeling. I did what you suggested once hun and did the balcony for a while. I know it passes but is really a desparate to break free feeling. I couldn't bear the frustration of being in a straight jacket but feel that'd be close to the feeling. Really bad feeling!

    Didnt have much production this time but got some major needed housework done which poor healths held me back from and Mr Deebi has a crook back too so can't vacuum. No probs he always helps when he can and at risk to his back carries heavy shopping and bags the pet.

    Scenarios aren't as often now thank goods and PTSD isn't as full on and way more manageable these days.
    This depression was yuk but ok-ish.

    Barely noticed the highs. Shame.

    Church was good thanks lovey. We have a cuppa which is good and had another at coffee shop with some. A kind lady often shouts us.

    Finally the biz is backing off. Near 3 wks pfftt wears you out.

    Foots a bit stirred. Wowsie about 6 days no 🤕. It hurt but gave myself hard deep massage to tender spots on last headache they're chronic to wake up to. Sore the next day but free of so far since. Maybe the answer but they do go at times. Hows your health lovey?

    Ok time for beddies soon. Sleep well honeyheart 😚
    Hope your days been better dear SSS
    Sending a virtual carrier pigeon 🕊 giving you bulk love security and happiness having such an awesome bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯🦋💤🍫
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    12 January 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....and everyone..🤗..

    Very Sorry Deebi, your feeling trapped..I think you may be right with it being anxiety...Big deep slow breaths lovely one..to stretch those chest muscles to get more fresh clean air in your lungs...anxiety attacks/panic attacks I think makes our chest muscles tighten...

    Such a beautiful and caring picture I had in my thoughts when your Mr.Deebi..gave you a warm caring hug...he is a treasure honey....

    That’s okay..although I’m sad, that you cried..it’s releasing bad from your soul so it can heal some more...

    Thank you for going out on your balcony for a while..I hope it helped to take that trapped feeling away...I would have sat with you and chatted to you until you felt more relaxed..

    Good girl 👧..doing some housework..even a little bit makes us feel like we accomplished something for the day..but please take note of your poor back..

    PTSD..is hard to live with..isn’t it?...especially the dreams and flashbacks...Getting ourselves up (Grounding ourselves) as soon as we realise we have been triggered into PTSD is so very important...or it can keep digging deeper and linger on in our brains for ???? days, weeks or even months...You are doing super well and I’m so proud of you..

    Maybe buy yourself a deep neck massage every few months and see if that helps with the headaches...I don’t know how much $ they cost though...

    Your in my thoughts Deebi..with a lot of care and love..💚🤗🦋🤗🕊🌱....so please take really good care of you...for me☺️...We have the best friendship.....golden thread...🤝👂👀...still Hoping one day 🙏...

    Love and hugs everyone..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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