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Topic: Surviving: Being in a better place

  1. Ggrand
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    22 April 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, and everyone...🤗..

    I am sorry that you’re having such a hard time both mentally and physically.....

    I couldn’t afford to see my Cardiologist if it wasn’t for my Doctor ringing him up and organising bulk billing for my appointments..I think most Drs can do that....Did you ask your Dr...if not dearest bbff...it’s worth a try...It’s not good for you to have to put up with so much physical pain...🤗..

    Awe, honey...grieving is a very person think...and honestly..it doesn’t matter how long it takes us...grieving comes our heart and soul...and it’s something that no one has control over....I think you were right to gently disagree with her....You take all the time you need to sweet lady....

    How did your outing go, with your besty with very sick friend..you have a beautiful heart full of support to the ones you love/like/care for...I hope you had a nice time...

    Please Deebi...It’s okay doing things...just a gentle reminder from me to please take it easy and only do things when you feel up to it...Its okay to take a break from doing things..

    Mania does help..in times of mentally drained days...and it’s so good that you can use that to your advantage..,the only problem is, that mania doesn’t last long and we have to be very gentle and caring on ourselves when it decides to leave us for a while....and try hard to rest both body and mind....

    Maybe if you ring your mental health support service and tell that that you do need some help in managing your mental health....It’s hard without that type of help....I remember when I had no support worker for a few months..it really did make it a lot harder for me..,,I wish I could ring them for you..🤗..

    I am about to go out and mow my lawn soon...I do hope your feeling better, then when you last posted..always here for you my sweetest bbff....both in heart and soul...Sending you lots of my love,..with heaps of my care..and one huge huggily huggle 🤗 hug..,that’s guaranteed to make you feel safe..💙👼🦄🧸🤗🌹🌹🦋🕊🌱..

    Hugs everyone..🤗🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    24 April 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi sweety Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and other lovelies 👋

    Thanks for your lovely visit darlin friend I appreciate very much you saying its ok not getting other things done you know I made great progress with the passwords but still have more to do. It's been busy lately doing all sorts of internet stuff and some social too.

    I've been playing a lot of online free (small cost) which I havent spent any for ages I'm improving a lot which is good. Made some enourmous improves with whats been a huge problem in the past. Pleased a chunk of compulsions settled.

    Getting onto checking out my walking bizzo being very hard most of the time. Had Aorta and iliacs ? Arteries or veins ultrasound checked out for blood flow. Seeing ortho surgeon soonish for hip. And Xray on shoulder ? Bursitis which is still there but easing off. Crikey nasty stuff.

    Grandy please be careful with those lawns I worry about you 9verdoing it. I truly wish I could do your yawns hun 😢 & dearly wish we could be rl. One day maybe eh we need hope. Without it there's not much to hold onto. I love we have here but... sigh

    I've lost the bulk of the weight gain. Only got 3 more kg's to get to what I recently was then to get back to the original big loss about 18 more so getting there.

    Iknow the area that I've been Stuck finding the thing but want to get stuck in and really look harder. It's SO important damn it! I'll get there,

    Yay finally got a call from my new mhw after I rang he sounds nice. Seeing him soonish.

    Absolutely loving my life with this beautiful dear Mr 😍 Deebi we're very happy. What a lovely soul the gorgeous.

    Thanks Grandy lovey yip it was good we see him a bit I didnt today had another headache 🤕 ok atm after a few meds.

    Yes I tried the bulk billing but will ask him when I see him as well. Hopefully otherwise they're ok to wait a bit. Gotta get this damn hip sorted geesh terrible pain for yrs. Pretty much daily often.

    Yes manias great while it lasts then there's the phoo dark rot to contend with. It's incredible how low it goes.

    Had a bit of a tiff with other besty we talked but havent since. We'll be ok. We love eachother deeply.

    Will be trying for NDIS again soonish I was knocked back because the fill in Dr and I 8n poor mh forgot to get back to an important part which I said about so hopefully be ok with that.

    Always you're in my 🗯 Grandy geez I really deeply love you. PubAok need you in my life dearest bbff ☺🤗💗👩‍❤️‍👩💜💫

    Thanks everyone as well ☺⚘🤗

    Nigh nite darlin/s 😴

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  3. Hanna3
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    25 April 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi Deebi,

    Just bookmarking your thread,I finally found you! It sounds like you have been a bit in the wars lately with your health, bursitis is nasty - but well done you on the weight loss!!!

    It's turning cold and rainy here after some lovely mild Autumn days, the sunshine has been lovely and the Autumn colours in the trees are spectacular.... at least it stayed fine for the ANZAC day ceremony here, a friend of mine's daughter was in one of the marching bands and was very excited about it, she is only very young.

    Best wishes from me and little Sam!

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    27 April 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear DB~

    I popped in to see how you are going. Looks like a bit of a mixed bag. I was sorry to read you had some much pain but not yet completely diagnosed. It must be a very limiting thing, and I'd expect you can't do a lot of what you want.

    Sill some victories, the weight for instance. Maybe that will ease some of the pressure on your legs, plus only playing free on line would be a pretty good sign, I understand (tell me if I"m wrong) you used to spend too much.

    I hope your mhw does work out OK, it can make such a difference

    With passwords I know someone who said they'd had the same password for 10 years and everything had been ok, so why change - talk about missing the point:)

    I agree it is a pity people cannot meet in real life and seems very frustrating , however if one could this place would not exist. People, myself included, come here because it is anonymous, and the friendships that develop probably would not get the chance face ot face.

    They are still genuine friendships, and that can make the whole world look different.

    I guess to we are alike in we are both blessed with lovely partners, your Mr 😍 Deebi and my Mrs C (who is not to be called Mrs Walrus!)

    Good luck in you next joust with NDIS, if it was not so important it could be classed as a comedy.

    Croix -ARGH 🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚 (your penguins are breeding😣

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    29 April 2022 in reply to Ggrand
    Hi lovely people 👩‍❤️‍👩🐕🐧🐾🐺
    Thank you for your time and support it really is such a comfort ☺

    I havent been posting much lately but will. Same catching up on threads.
    Been pretty busy lately in a good way which is refreshing opposed to stressful busy lately. Achievement getting things done just so hard in poor mh times.

    Yes Mr Croixy man this online I did lose a few yrs ago which shook me and stopped which was pretty huge being compulsive.
    I've learnt a lot since then and my rankings a lot better.
    The other, Was many yrs of serious grief Theres some positive changes with that.

    It'd be much easier one password I too know of someone same no probs.
    Nah not for me tho. I'll be so relieved when I finish them. About 3/4's.

    Hey Kitty kitty 😆 yip you've gotta watch them fiddling around with your meals it can have drastic consequences just like if Im deprived of choccy 🍫 I turn into the hulk. Just another super power you know how it is.
    I'll get back re the you & Croixy convo might need a reminder if ok. I'm noticing more lately how much the memories affected in mh & the stroke would contribute too.
    Thanks hun ☺ Good seeing you around. What's your threads name darl

    Grandy thanks lovey 🤗 re gently disagreeing with the lady on grieving geesh inside wasn't being so sweet 😆
    The outs with sick friend are always good he's a good fella and as this gorgeous Mr 😍 easy going. Thanks hun ☺
    Thx too for the reminder its ok to have a break from things.

    Hannah thank you too for dropping by hun and your lovely support.
    Dr wants to see me I think which Im not surprised. Hoping more than ? Bursitis results we have some reasons for the thighs. Very hard any length of walking. Bit of a concern & if it worsens. I suspect its from my back so we'll see what happens.
    Autumn colours are nice and its a good season without as much heat when it settles into the season I find. Grandy its your fave too I think.

    I'm ok mentally atm, well handling the rubbish rot.
    Not in mh atm probs not far off.

    Tired & have a cold but not feeling too bad atm. Luckily I dont get them often.

    Croixy pretty impressive your emoji work there it gave me a big 😁 See girls there's hope yet 😉

    Thanks again lovely ones 🤗 take care ⚘
    Deepest love our dear Grandz 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗🗯💫🦄✨

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    29 April 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    😸Glad you are getting the good things done, things you enjoy.

    & I am hopeful your Dr can help with the thigs/back, anything, really. I keep hoping something for us will turn up & be what we need to be more mobile & less in pain. It's so frustrating, going back & asking about same problems, time & time again. I find that can mess with my mh.

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    My new thread is called 'Poems by mmMekitty *TW*', because I want to put poems up, & they might trigger some people, so it comes with a trigger warning & is in PTSD & Trauma, too.

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    Well, we do indeed try to bring Croix onboard with the emojis. (Hi Croix). They usually are so cheery & brighten up a block of text. I was very impressed with his 🐧🥚🐧🥚🐧🥚series 😹

    & then, he sends the 🐧, babies & all, to my home thread. So, with the vacancy left by this eviction, many🦩s, a whole swarm of then, have emigrated to become the new tenants. They dance & skitter on the ice, making lovely formations! It's a wonderful spectacle.

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    Eat well, sleep well, & behave yourself, only when absolutely necessary! 😺You 🦸‍♀️Super DB!

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    mmMekitty 😺

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    30 April 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Hanna, Croix, mmMeKitty and everyone...🤗..

    That’s okay about posting....We all understand and are so proud of you for sticking to what you’re doing and getting great results from your hard work....you go bbff....you’re amazing what your achieving....

    Deebi....If I may..please be super careful on online (free cost) games...I used one particular game to escape reality and it cost me a small fortune....it’s so easy to buy a few extra games...only to loose them quickly...

    Congratulations on your weight loss...I knew you could do it...Its something that I really need to do....my problem is I eat out of boredom/anxiety/depression etc....need to find a way of this cycle...I’m working on it...

    I really do hope that your Dr. can help you with your hip/s...and help you in anyway he/she can....Having bursitis and arthritis myself in one hip...I know how hard the pain gets at times....Wishing you all the best luck I have for you...that something can be done to help you...

    Good news, knowing that you will soon meet your new my support person...

    My heart warms, when I hear how happy you are with Mr. Deebi....and you’re loving life with him....I never had that in my life...I am very happy to hear that you do....it’s really precious to have someone that you love....love you back as well...😍...my love 💖 to you both...

    So good your mental health is okay atm....positive thinking honey...Let’s hope your mental health stays good for a long time..,wish for you it was forever...but I know how a bi polar episode can sneak up on us...way to quickly..

    Pubaok...as well dearest bbff...I also need you in my life...our golden thread can never been broken...here for you always...you’re deep in my 💭..with my love, care and best wishes...💙🦋🧸🤗🕊🌱🌿🌳..

    Hugs, love and care to everyone...🦋🤗💜..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    3 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi, wave to everyone,

    Well done on the weight loss... just thought I should let you know... there is a lot here I'd be more than happy to share with you if you start to miss yours 😁

    I hope all of these tests you have been having do result in you getting the care you need sooner rather than later... you have been putting up with a lot for a very long time lass... it can't help your mh or your quality of life...

    Have you heard when you will get to meet your new mh worker?.. I'm keeping everything crossed he turns out to be as good as your previous one.

    Woofa & I did a little happy dance 💃🐕‍🦺💃hearing how you have been feeling a sense of achievement getting some stuff done... yay you!!!

    Big hugs & a nose bop from his Woofiness

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    4 May 2022 in reply to Paw Prints

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, and all the beautiful people here..🤗..

    Just popping in to wish you all the very best wishes and luck I have in my soul and heart for you today...

    I looked into my crystal ball 🔮 this morning and saw in the near future ...You, my bbff, with Mr.Deebi, Paws, Croix, mmMeKitty, Hanna, Magic, myself and some more lovely people all sitting around a huge Oak Tree...which had the most gorgeous different colours Autumn leaves over hanging above us...as we were all eating some yummy scones, jam & cream....and drinking our favourite beverages...mine being tea....We were all giggling and having a wonderful time....birds 🦜are singing and playing above us in the 🌳 Oak Tree, a few butterflies 🦋 flittering around, the occasional Autumn leaf 🍁 falling softly onto our heads...getting caught in some people’s hair...as the soft breeze blows through the leaves with its awesome whistling music....and the occasional rays of the sunshine peeping through the leaves and warming our souls....We all looked like we were having a beautiful and fun time....

    Sitting with you...in the waiting room and holding you hand, while you’re going through any tests you’re having today...I’m never far away from you honey....my thoughts, love and care are with you 24/7..💭💙🦋🤗...🦄👼...

    Love, care and hugs everyone..💜🦋🤗...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🕊🌱🌿🌳..

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    5 May 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi dear people 👩‍❤️‍👩🐾🐧🐕🐺🐒

    Again thank you all. Your support means so much. I intend to reply near future. Soon start catching up/posting on your threads. I'm so close to finishing the passwords hardest parts done boomer!

    Then work on ironically a more important jobby. The p.words caused high stress esp in poor mh. The other researchwhich means going through a stack of Paperwork but will be a godsend to achieve. I've put considerable time in. Close but need more effort,

    STOKED I'm having a full hip replacement within a yr. The time frame didnt phase me. Had this wicked pain about 12 yrs. Since moving multiple times daily

    Gotta lose at least 15 kg's but will do 23 for now. Then I let the lovely surgeon who bulk billed yay know. He's going to get me in before the yr. Rapt 😀

    Grandy I really loved our friend time under the tree you worded it so well I was there. Thank you for your loving caring compassionate posts 🤗 Been giving your 🎁 more thought it's getting closer pwomish sss 😚 It's a special one I like it

    Wow didn't even know I was in mh until one morning I pretty much couldn't stop crying. Couldnt pin point why. I didnt have the wee hr wakings was so tired over about 2/3 wks rising early with aching legs re thighs back or 🤕 headache. OMG yesterday out I didnt have any otc's it came on in seconds as they do. Was severe at times felt my head was going to explode. Moving it in circles eased it. Similar to you Grandz was nauseous often. I have them more than not these days. For yrs a constant. Grandy I wonder if you'd get some relief with anti inflammatory's/otc's. Careful not to have too many I'm not great today but eased somewhat.

    Croixy yes using mania to learn how to cope. I'm improving channeling it to what I need to achieve. Godsend.

    Pawsy 😄 might pass on sharing the weight but thanks 😅 Hey we'll get there. I'm about choofing lifelong demons & that's a biggy. Grandy mentioned I too amongst other reasons like greed boredom eat with poor mh as comfort food. It's the ultimate in pleasure

    2 Drs now have said for diabetes (sugar too) & weight loss it's the carbs we need to work on moreso. Heavier ones, bread rice pasta are slow release energy so if not burnt off off turn into fat. I try not to have bread at night we move more in the day. Reducing 🍫 ouchy

    Going to push walking. Thighs ? from the back eek scary. S.times ok. Always hip ouch

    Deepest soul/💜👩‍❤️‍👩 cya lovelies 🤗☺ ty⚘

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    Good news about getting a hip replacement - though I am 'arky' about you having to have so much pain for so long, & still have to wait longer.

    I've worked on my food choices so much, I am wondering what else I can do? Probably those things, like you & the 🍫reduction... but for me, it would be more about cheese & pasta - thing I 'think' I can't live without. Plan to give up coffee someday. No nutrition & expensive. It's not much different to other legal substances we can become addicted to or dependant upon. If they provide no healthful benefit, whilecosting us money - this is a decent reason to remove them from our lives.

    I will spend somewhat more to have wholemeal pasta & Multigrain bread, & bake my bikkies with wholemeal flour, too, although, percentage-wise, there is not much in them anyway. I do find wholemeal pasta & multigrain grain bread more filling, & so don't need to use so much as I did before.

    But I'll do a Devonshire Tea with Grandy, yourself, Paws, Croix, Hanna, & anyone else included, furbubs & all, under any big old oak tree, anywhere, anytime.😹

    Please t;ry to pace yourself, DB. I know how it is to want to get more done while feeling able & the mood is up, but I feel sure I wouldn't be telling you anything new to remind you how over-doing things can equally adversely affect your mental health. Just a note of caution.❤️

    Hope you enjoy the bushwalking - a gentle bushwalk, with stops for taking photos or just listening to whatever you can hear, smelling the bushland, stuff like that, giving you good memories & feelings about it.😺

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️to all,

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    8 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi, wave to all,

    Yayyyy!!!! How wonderful you will be getting a new hip within the year... finally!!

    I loved the vision Grandy saw in her crystal ball... yep name the time & the tree & I will be there... Woofa has volunteered to come & hoover up any crumbs or spilt jam & cream... he promises not to chase mmMekitty & to play gently with all the furs.

    Huggily hugs

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    13 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, waves mmMeKitty, Paws and everyone..🤗..

    Thats really good news about the hip replacement....I am so happy for you and hope that it’s sooner then later...A new hip....will give you a lot more quality into your life....gentle walks with your gorgeous love is something for you to look forward too....Don’t forget to let us know the date...I will start toread up on hip replacements so I can be there with you to make certain the surgeon is doing his best job....

    My Dr. advised me not to take otc anti inflammatory meds...as it doesn’t sit well with my heart disease...I did find at work some gel eye masks..that you keep in the fridge and wear when a migraine attack....so I’ll try next time and let you know how and if it works....

    You’re doing so well with all the work you set out to do...I am really proud of you for sticking with it...you go girl 🥇...I never doubted that you wouldn’t finish....but I know a but...please do it steadily..remember slow and steady gets things done...doesn’t matter how long it takes...

    Awe gee, honey...I was saddened to read that you have been crying...wish I was their for you...I would have had our cloud soft cloth and gently dried your tears....Oh no...and suffering with a migraine...Don’t they knock us around a lot?...I do hope that it’s choofed off now..🤗..

    Deebi,.,.Hard isn’t it?....giving up the carbs...I remember many years ago...hubby wanted me to loose weigh..he took all the carbs out of the kitchen..sugar, bread, chocolates, milk, eggs, biscuits..everything....he licked them up for him...I will say though, that the weight dropped off me..and so did my energy and my health..,,so please precious friend...moderation is the best way to go....not eliminating them all completely...

    Sorry I haven’t been around for you that much.... in my heart/soul and thoughts I talk to you each day...wondering and hoping that you are okay....RUOK?...honey..only when you feel to answer...no pressure...

    SSS love and care sweet bbff...24/7..with some warm comforting and friendship hugs...💙🦋🌹🧸🤗...a seed dropped from a bird 🕊..starts to grow 🌱 with the right care, a bit of love and nourishment it grows 🌿 and continues to grow🌳..getting stronger within itself...The more we care for ourselves with care, love and nourishment the stronger we become both mentally and physically...

    Hugs to everyone 🤗 as well as my care and love..🤗🦋💜.

    Grandy..🕊🌱🌿🌳..

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    13 May 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi DB & all.

    I know now, I have bursitis in my right shoulder - fairly manageable if I don't do things that hurt it. I want to try physical therapy, & hope that'll be effective... I feel like I have joined a club I've recently heard from people, so much about, all only these last few months! (Sorry,) it's like a virus going round & I had caught it! 😼

    It took me a while to get to read Oliver Sacks' book on Migraine. It still has some useful info, but would love it if some specialist like Oliver Sacks had been, could update it. He was a Neurologist who talked about people & their experiences, his own included. First bublished in 1970 & a revised editinon was published 1992 - maybe that was the one I had. Even if so, it could do with further updated information.

    It has helped me understand much more than I would have without it. I still cannot fully appreciate how Migraine is actually experienced. Your discussion about them is very important, for those who only have recently diagnosed, & people like me, who could do with some education, to use when we do meet someone who has Migraine.

    I hope the eye mask helps, Grandy. It would go so well with the Super 🦸‍♀️Grandy persona I am thinking up for you! I do believe most are a rich aqua blue, even nicer than the colour in the emoji. Would you like that?

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Nice & extra soft, for anyone.😺

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    13 May 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey lovelies ☺

    I'm ok still can laugh chat etc but it's yeah Grandy damnned hard!. but then theres mania so its not all bad & getting stronger's a boom too.

    I actually remember parts of this recent mania (extra bursts over a couple days) it was suff I know like looking for positives and feeling them which I was bought up to appreciate the good things but we can forget.

    Mostly my bodies getting me outta bed early either back pain ?sinusy thing really plays with the breathing its stressful.

    Had a few m9re blaghh days but able to pull out now days within a reasonable time whereas before it'd be WOW! SO SO Black! It's dark Brown now days with doses of Black then between during episodes its still blaghh Brown with severalsun sparks at times too.

    Rah rah that'll do for now ☺

    I started a reply but need to make it fit & edit so think I'll fluff around over the w/e. It's taken hrs with a couple of others so might just blob for a while.

    Grandy always a dose of you is fantastic thx hun. Loved the seed growing.

    A reminder of one of our many great times the other day with a particular emoji gave me a really nice happy can't think which one but instant happy 😀and you with the surgeon you're so gorgeous. I 😂 remembering you jumping in the mri tunell and supervising the surgeon h for my hip oh youre a gem girl.

    Sorry I really want to reply properly I need to note. Do sometimes then forget.

    Some more physical South rot that's at times wanting to pull my hair out 😮 when and if I scratch it ends up sore with risk of more friggen carbuncles that for now anyway are resting.

    I think a lots related to stress which is pretty full on in mh as we all know too well.

    Gotta keep at it though eh. I'm not as blaghh all the time theres plenty of goods including this sweet dear soul 😍 oh he's a precious man.

    Thanks beautifuls.

    Kitty yes same I've learnt to try not using the arm it caught a couple of beauties today we forget eh. It's about 80% improved but yikes still some cracking pain. Seeing Dr soon. Couldnt get in earlier. It'll settle. Sure I dislocated something in bed before related to the bursitis making it a slower recovery. Geez your hip must be tragic Grandz poor darlin.

    Cyaz thanks heaps for everything really ☺😚🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜🐺🐾🐧🐕💗✨💫🗯

     

     

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    😺As & when, DB.

    I just got myself so warm I am sweating, & took off my dressing gown. Pasta & tinned tomatoes with cheese & a little garlic butter for extra. 😺 But I forgot the pesto. Oh well,there will be a next time, when I won't be so tired & wanting to put my legs up & won't forget anything I want to include in this meal.

    It is so easy to be thinking, grab that thing off the shelf, reach up with my usually dominant arm, & hurt my right shoulder again. Sometimes it really does feel like something is being dislocated in there, especially when I try to get comfortable at night, to sleep, often on my right side. Otherwise it's lying on my back Either way the nose gets annoying to downright damn near impossible.

    I feel my mood, my grumpiness & impatience are increasing as my tiredness increases. These seem to be all linked together.

    Pain is like that, too, gets worse with aspects mood, or vice versa,

    I used to think I was not so good in the mornings. But now I feel I am at my best then, whatever time I wake up (& don't get back to sleep or have done earlier) When I get up, I'm in less pain, I can think, one at a time, what I need to do or am going to do that day, am more comfortable writing.

    Tonight I wish to send you, DB, Grandy, Paws, Croix & all, ☮️peace & 🎶Harmony🌈, &warm, gentle💞hugs from me.

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    Hi 👩‍❤️‍👩🐺🐧🐾🐕 and readers 👋

    Uh oh wee hrs. Funny well not literally 😄 that you got overheated and took your dressing gown off I too which is what woke me and coughing until I had a drink of water wouldn't stop. I've been steadily smoking longer than usual but same no intention of full time again. Not only health but $ its insane to continue esp that I fear having lung related consequences. Until I tame that inner rebellious bully that insists we do the wrong thing by ourselves it wins. Want to be well off them a while before the op too. Another solid reason to stay off em. I need to curb the stubborness too because I have patches tho I can almost do it on my ear in normal times. Just need to get to that place. Not as common these days.

    Crikey I read my last post back. Need to be sure to note/edit. I think the gist came out just but wow.

    I haven't experienced dislocation before but have seen on TV and heard from peeps. It was really intense felt like although I eventually did that I couldn't move that eased it. Could be as you said feels like it. If I even get to see the Dr damn could have seen him the other day but had a head cold. Its usual at some point I start coughing with smoking. No other symptoms sore throat fever etc but they need to be careful. Actually we have a self test here so I'll do it today for ? Covid that I doubt but wouldnt hurt to check

    Grandy don't ever feel you're not around much. you always are precious friend. Geez you have so much to contend with and being a CC would keep you busy. Ditto always in Spirit Heart h soul sweety. Anyway you are around often hun 🤗😚💜

    Kitty yes everything seems exacerbated in mh doesn't it from emotions sensitivity to pain threshold. Too much fun

    Darl soz could you plz name your poetry thread again I could look back just being slacko and your personal thread if you'd like support there. These days I'm sporadic but would like to support you when I'm not withdrawing. In those times it's near impossible to word properly and feel that there's any worth in what I'm saying. Sometimes takes hrs for one post but get there which is what matters eh.

    Tiredness it's hard work isnt it. It strips our tolerance patience etc

    Sorry peeps this is best description. Like theres snot up high but it doesn't come out blowing the nose tho s.times after I'm up it does. Can't sleep with it.

    Nearly out of letters thx ☺ always 🐺💗⚘

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    Ohwah! DB, I didn't want to be up this early, but since I am...,

    My first thread I've been using more like a journal & place to chat (so I can find it!) is located in this same section, Long term support over the journey, & it's called:

    Introducing mmMekitty

    & my poems thread, in PTSD and Trauma, is called:

    Poems by mmMekitty *TW*

    *

    I cooled a bit before getting to sleep, got hot again, & like you, I have nose/snot problems & then the book I was listening to, the reader sometimes speaks too loud & sometimes too soft, so it is difficult to decide what volume to leave it at. Then I wonder what time I woke with crap in my throat, & an email had come in, which has me thinking too much to get back to sleep. That was 4:40am. & I'm taking some time writing this after looking at older emails & the attachments, which I can't read easily... keep thinking, surely we have sent all we needed to send so what do I have that they still need?

    & I'm feeling I want my dressing gown on again! & a cuppa, too.

    I'll return later.😺I'll scoot over to the BB Café for my cuppa.

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    14 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone...

    Yucky..sinus with post natal drip? Is terribly uncomfortable..

    A couple of things I do when I get that...is to put a couple of teaspoons of Vick’s Vapour Rub...into a small bowl with boiling water...put a towel over your head...cover you and the steaming Vick’s bowl....then breathe in through your nose...gently at first...hopefully you’ll feel your gorgeous nose becoming less stuffed up still gently breathe trough your nose with the Vick’s steam.....it might also get rid of the post nasal drip.....also I put some eucalyptus oil drops onto a tissue and place inside the pillow slip...so I can smell it....the eucalyptus oil drops don’t work much for me in clearing up my nose...but it sure does smell fresh....no pressure to try...just thought I would mention something that works for me....never know unless you try it..if it works for you...no pressure to try at all honey...

    Thank you, for making me feel not so bad...about me not being here to support you...as much as I normally are...You truely are my bbff....love you dear sweet friend.💙🦋🌹🕊🌱...🧸🤗🦄👼.

    Good girl, doing a covid test...your so right...it doesn’t hurt to check...and it takes only a few minutes..

    I hope you and Mr Deebi...have a beautiful day today....I made you some hot lemon and honey drink...Great to sip on throughout the day and night...

    Hugs everyone with my love and care...🤗💜🌹..

    Grandy..

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    Hi DB!😺 Hope you don't mind me dropping in? I've got a big pot of steaming 🍲 something... what does it smell like? Stew? or my old mittens? I'll just put it on a very low simmer, eh? &, you can decide whether it's fit to 🍜eat or to use as 💩fertilizer, 😺.

    Hope you are feeling better these days.

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    Just popping in to ask you my precious friend...RUOK.?

    missing you.....Um did I say anything to upset you...if I did I am really sorry....

    No pressure bbff....How are you feeling....truth please..

    SSS love, care and hugs..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🕊🌱🌿🌳..

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    Hey Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩🐺 🐾🐧🐒

    No lovey I doubt you'd ever upset me 🤗 ? I've been a bit quiet.

    Been a hard few wks on & off.
    Mostly I can pull up a bit with dark moods. Horrid!

    Not too bad with darling 😍Just moments & liking myself less after. He rarely reacts the dear love.
    I ask how I've been.The precious holds back saying. I say it's ok to. So beautiful 😍

    Think v.mixed episodes moreso this time

    Do you/anyone know much about Schizophrenia? I've heard you dont have to hear voices.
    I've always thought no. Just can't understand the onslaught of total crap thoughts with mild paranoia
    So many scenarios always bad. It's always like my mind wants to destroy me

    Multiple PTSDs this time again!

    Anxiety gets hairy tho making some progress

    Untold thoughts of what people might be thinking or going to say. ? anxiety or...

    I feel totally stripped in the darks & vulnerable. Can't believe the crap that goes on in my head.

    Nose nearly settled.
    Arms part Rotator cuff & bursitis. Some ouches but a lot better. He's unsure why it felt like a dislocation. Pretty sure it was. Extreme pain different to the usual times

    Tho I have/do get close to people it's easier not too. (You yes) Too damned sensitive. Most of us could do with better filters at times tho

    Was unaware being in mh tho felt besty was having a go unintentionally which escalated fast on her part. We spoke openly & honestly. I defended myself calmly, happy bout that
    Hoping tomorrows catch up we can talk more to put this to bed.
    Have a couple of apologies. We're/will be fine. Beautiful soul love her v.much.

    I get why some friends even with their besties don't want to be all the time together (I love it with partners) ? the
    honeymoon doesnt last long

    I'm more aware in mania going off topic on some threads.
    Working hard to tame the beast & in highs. Not quite there yet.
    I'm pretty sure I too hurt someone Grandy which wasn't/ever my intention.
    If they're reading I am sorry. I responded in anger & was aware after posting before they'd several times commented and was already down on myself feeling like a fool

    Fleetingly now days I think is it worth the pain. Yes we need to hold onto the goods.
    Just so much to work through eh 😧

    Dear Kitty thank you and Hanbah as well for your visits and support as well as everyone.

    Best back to bed was up wee hrs. Nigh nite ☺

    Thanks for your care time & listening good people

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    24 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear DB~

    I hope you managed to get some sleep. There seems to be so much going on inside you it can be hard. Add to that the physical pain and I'd be a bit surprised you can manage much at all.

    I'd not worry too much about any post you made, after all what might seem bad to you others might not even notice. Plus on the times I've felt my post was a mistake I've simply REPORT POSTed it and asked it be taken down - a safety net.

    It's not always easy so write a balanced piece when angry or in pain - or tired for that matter, so please cut yourself some slack.

    I'd have to agree htat a little distance at times can be good, sometimes I"m not in a good mood and any conversations can go downhill - same for others. I guess Mr DB is a bit of a treasure

    You wanna watch out for mmMekitty's 'stew'🍲. If it is anything like we had at school it will change you perspective permanently:(

    OK, I'm off, have penguin🐧 - no don't thank me I've got plenty (🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧)

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    25 May 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Hi Croix, MmMeKitty, Paws

    I do hope I put no pressure on you to post.....I do get very concerned when you’re not around....in r/l I would ring you daily to check on you....I can’t do that...the only way I know if your okay is through these forums..😢..

    Deebi, so sorry your doing it so hard right now..mixed episodes are the pits aren’t they....they seem to never end..but they do dear bbff....things change constantly, you’ll come out of this the other end...just that tiny bit stronger then before...each time our resilience does strengthen....I know it probably doesn’t feel like it does...but it does...

    Hun, you would never hurt anyone intentionally or otherwise...please remember that you have help countless numbers of this beautiful community and everything you say to anyone is from your heart to help them through there struggles...you are one awesome and beautiful lady...I have done what sour wise Croix has said...deleted a post by reporting it, after I realise that my words could be taken the wrong way.....it’s okay Deebi...please don’t let that get you down...I know it hurts us deeply.....to think we hurt someone...I just went through that....the pain does ease as we read only...then we read a post and we know that we can help them......then we start posting again...feeling a little less hurt....You are very much valued on these forums beautiful lady...

    I am so proud of you, gently defending yourself and being able to talk openly and honestly with your friend...I hope today, that you both can sort it out and have a nice besty hug...and put it all behind you....I only have in r/l...one besty...”Betty”....as much as I love and care for her...I still keep a bit of distance between us....trust is a big issue for me...

    I feel sadness that your bursitis is playing up on you...same for me..The colder weather is no friend to my arthritis, which in turn starts off the bursitis pain.....I find a heat pack warmed up in the microwave does help a little at night...

    running out of characters...so I’ll send you all the love I have in my heart and soul to you bbff...💙🕊🌱🦄🧸🤗🤗..with my 💭 kind care..

    hugs everyone, with love and care..💜🌹🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Oh no....please Deebi...I need to apologise to dear Croix..

    I am so really sorry...Dear Croix..I just re read my post here..I meant to say...I have done what our wise Croix has done...not that other word...I really am sorry...I really should proof read my posts before posting them....

    Please forgive my typing error....😢..it’s not what I wanted to write..

    Grandy...

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    Oh I love you Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thank you so much and our favourite Croixy penguin 😄 for such comforting posts. Seriously I really appreciate the beautiful people here.

    I have yet to reply properly to your caring posts so for now Grandz I had such a warm smile and giggle inside re the other word because I know you'd never say that 😂 oop sorry hun it reminds of another one between us I still love it. I'm positive he won't be at all rattled. Our Mr Croixys Gold and definately clued up to know if someones having a go.

    Slept a lot yesterday so postponed today besty till Sunday. Hoping to today again and walk struth there's sun!

    Oh had a lovely catch up with other one. Love her v.deeply too. Shes one that doesnt like too often but also often v.busy.

    Bbl beautiful people ☺ Many thanks again for your comforting replies that are really appreciated.

    Absolutely no pressure felt btw Grandy I know I'd be the same if rl and hey it's a besties job to keep track on eachother. In hard mh I often start but don't finish posts like one for here but was pleased that I dod finish a couple. S.times its just have to do something or go out.

    Goin to walk today 🐢 ...😅...that's about it then on rare occasions I'm off like a zippity doo da

    Huge love Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩💜 always 🗯 be at yours today hoping 🤗😚

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    25 May 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    🐧

    Humph - "sour Croix" indeed! 🐧 Goes off grumbling, grumble, grumble grumble ...

    🐧🐧

    Dratted penguins

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    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Croix and everyone....

    I have spent a huge 8.6seconds knitting you a triple layered, super soft snuggling into blanket with a hood on it to keep your head warm.....Winter has arrived here at mine with full force...it’s freezing...

    How are you feeling honey...both of course physically and mentally?....I hope that beasty has been taught a lesson from you and [IT]xx...has run away for a long time...

    Did I once say I prefer the winter?...What was I thinking 🤔. This year I am feeling the cold so much..I do hope that you are keeping warm....

    Lovely that you had another catch up with your other bestie...that’s really nice...it’s so good staying in touch with our friends when we can....we’ll done...

    I think our lovely Croix has been riding his iceberg around my area and left a freezing zone spell in my little village...I often wondered why his iceberg doesn’t melt when he has his blazing wood fire on...It’s because he leaves it near my place....so it stays frozen 🥶....

    I hope you like your new hooded 3 ply blanket....I knitted it in Sapphire Blue...with tiny jonquils embroidered all over it...

    Much big love, care and warm hugs bbff..💙🦋🧸🤗🦄👼..stay warm and cosy and please after yourself..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🕊🌱🌿🌳

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    8 June 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful D👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Croix and everyone...🤗

    Deebi...RUOK.?....I read on mine some things that I can’t remember what I heard...as the post reported by you has disappeared into cyber space...It was okay you posted it on mine...as we are spirit Soul sisters...what’s mine is yours...and your welcome to post whatever you want to on mine/our thread...

    No hurry to reply precious friend, but um...I do worry about you if I don’t Here from you in over a few days...that being said..no pressure at all...

    I do remember that your doing very good with getting your passwords in order and easier to remember..very confusing aren’t they?...

    What you been up to, this past week, apart from redesigning your passwords?...I hope you’ve been using your fluffy warm 8.6 sec, sapphire blue, embroidered with jonquil blanket to keep you warm...

    I’ve had temperatures below 8 deg for around 6 days now..it’s so cold to do anything except lay on my lounge under a blanket....I do need to make a doggie bed..my new dog Peppa has taken a shine to Ebony’s bed...so I’ll have to make one very soon...I have all the materials necessary to make one...all I have to do now it to get my motivation going....got my sewing machine out a few days ago and now it will probably need dusting and oiling because it’s sitting still doing nothing, in this cold damp air...Do you like sewing bbff...I do but after only a few minutes the arthritis between my shoulder blades (on my spine)...really starts to protest about all the movements and begins to cause me lots of pain....I think by the time I start and finish her bed...it will be Summertime and Peppa will be sprawled out on the floor 😂...

    Sending you my eternal love...if you go to your window in about 7.32.6789.1 sec...you will be able to catch my 🐻 🤗 I sent down on our golden thread 💙💫💙=🧸🤗..

    My care, hugs and love to everyone..🦋💜🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🕊🌱🌿🌳..

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    9 June 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    My gorgeous bbff Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 Croixy 🐧 Pawsy 🐾 Hannah 🐕Monks 🐒&readers 🤓

    Yay back in so happy. Couldn't get in. Was goin to post at yours 👩‍❤️‍👩 😆 not my stuf. Warm thanks that was beautiful 'our thread precious soul 🤗 ditto lovely☺

    Yes quite a few probs goods happening. Socials too👍

    Lovely friend visiti today & probs meeting with sick friend later. Heart wrenching knowing we won't have him much longer😢 Palliative care soon 😥

    It's SO hard his brother always talking about "when he dies" etc and its all about how it'll affect him! My heart split when friend said it's really getting to him. At times I'm being direct but not making an issue. I'm one of the very few that'll say anything. I want to talk to him sometime geez this guys fighting for his bloody life he doesnt need that he needs strong support and love that he gets from everyone else and us. I do know it affects him tho.Think I'm the only person that sees some good in him which I mention occasionally to people. He's not a bad person but lacks compassion understanding care factor. To be fair he suffers MH as well. It's bloody off though!

    In the process of getting extra MH support incl a counsellor. Still can see a psychologist. I'll see a clinical one who can diagnose then do NDIS reports.

    They can do lawns (smallish) that I enjoy-Grandy I'd be at yours in a flash mind you it'd take more than a flash to do 🤔 a week sounding ok

    Limited housework/cooking if need in poor mh. Coach for motivation/goals new device & digital teaching. BOOMER!

    Doing daily physio exercises OMG painful to start on stationary bike. A few pain screams & sitting up like I have a rod in my back eases it. I can even v.carefully pick up speed. 6 mins fast 💃 walking, stand ups from seat no hands will increase in time. Pushed through the last couple days.Stoked

    Oh SO good just LOVEN our play 👩‍❤️‍👩 hey those dropped stitches worked a treat. I wear my gorjy blanky as a coat. It goes over my head. Score! & so quick 😂 Ahh Jonquils 💗

    Croixy thx u really comforted me re post back there

    I'd love you to teach me to sew Grandz. Poor love the damned pain. So glad you've been doing some. 😄 dusting/oiling.

    Slowly weights going. 3kgs to lose what I gained then about 25 more. Soon after by the sounds the hip op.

    I'll repost the uh oh one 😅

    Hoping in next 3ish days to finish p.words YAY huge one.

    Grandy I love you so deeply. Often I imagine us together doing stuff talking 😂 like we do.

    Thank you all 💗💜👩‍❤️‍👩⚘

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