wow you've got talent poems are fantastic ...really
And it was good Sez Chooky (Sarah) said it releases endorphines to combat the pain so I've learnt a lot today here and had quite a lot of social interaction in many forms, forums, fb, calls, visitor, msg'r been really good.
Yes part of my plan the list is going to be allocating time for different things daily instead of when I get outta this BP (Bipolar for anyone reading) through the hell stage that NEVER fails to slam there's totally nothing, love TV but need to do things to achieve, I do get out and about and have kept with walking,excruciating agony 10 on 1-10 pain scale for bad outs so HAVE to keep working on core strength and awesome for endorphine release, helps no end with stress out too
Yeah I reckon try not to stress about being there for people too much when you're in a bad way, you do really well and support but ya don't need that extra on top & exactly right, there's others too & I bounce around as well so as mentioned will be here more often from now on
Something I'm working on and going well with for survival is learning to like myself, extreme low self esteem started very young, bout 9ish, beautiful parents but ya know how the depression beast can be & BP damn it goes low and of course good old people being people at times when you're at vulnerable ages, I had 3 at those crucial times but also one of the beasts tools is making us sensitive, anything that pulls us down is usually it's tendrils at work & by god there's a lot but I truly believe we all have strength in us, it gets buried but with time and effort we can pull back up. I tried to end it few times in teens and very close during heaviest times grieving but so glad recently I realised it's the BP downs that are when I want to so that's another rod so I'll see how this low goes, probs in about another wk or so it'll start, had some severe flashes of deep downs amongst the highs this time round, was a mixed episode.
Mostly goods so far consistent in mania. Magic beyond
thx for explaining graphic
Ok sweety oh one more thing I was thinking ...do you like yourself at all? If not baby steps, just think of one thing and keep reiterating.
You're lovely, support people, care, help, converse, speak with respect, honest, strong wether you see it or not you are, kind. Something helping me is I have a lot of people like/love me so must have the goods aye, you too
Nigh nite, hope you get some serious zzzz's ((( )))