I'm not sure i'm posting in the right board
I arrived in Australia with a beloved partner in 2018 on a Working Holiday Visa. Coming from Europe and in a relationship since 2015 we wanted to travel before settling up somewhere as farmers. We had the same life goals, politicals views, ideals, passions, interests... We travelled around this amazing country before putting down our backpacks and settling in an absolute beautiful house. We both had a steady job, and were working on our visas to stay in Australia as long as possible.
She fell for my best friend, took our 4WD, bought a caravan and after weeks of complete emotional breakdown cut all ties, deleted me on social media and every mean of communication. Just a few weeks after we got our student visa granted for 3 years.
All this happenned throught March/April/May. I also had a pretty bad car accident when all that happenned, rolled it over on a mountain road. I never felt that lonely when trying to recover from that trauma. Thank god for the miracle as i wasn't hurt physically, but i now have anxiety when i drive.
This is a very very short version of a long story of mental abuse from them during those months. When i look back in time, its still almost feels unreal.
I always had mild depression/anxiety, not the best self-esteem and now clearly abandonment issues. I could say that was the last nail on the coffin. I know time heal everything, so i held on.
I did a 10 days
Vipassana course in June that helped me a lot overcoming the emotionnal
pain. I then met an incredible girl, we fell in love, we had a genuine
attraction, same interests and even looking like traumas thats we wanted
to heal together. But everything went to quick and she ended up
breaking my heart, that she didnt want a relationship. I held on again,
but after a few weeks of breaking down in tears daily i feel like i
really need to share my story.