We have DID can I still write here?
I don’t know how much sense this will make, so I’d better say sorry now.
The last few weeks I have been seeing pictures in my head, but not in a way that I see the event from start to finish. It is just like a flick of an event, then there is another flick of a different one. More like flicking through a photo album than watching a movie, I guess. Sometimes what I see is a couple of seconds, but it’s usually just a moment in time.
It does help if I can describe the picture to our doc. I have told him about a couple of them. Not the actual bad stuff, I can’t remember a lot of the details. Things like talking about the room in detail, or the ground I am sitting on - that sort of stuff. And if I do that, that snapshot fades - but it’s replaced by another one.
I probably should say we were diagnosed with DID quite a few years ago and I’m not the original, the one born into the body. And unfortunately my fear at what I see ‘bleeds’ through to some others in our system and they feel the fear but don’t always know why. That makes me feel so guilty.
It has been happening for a few weeks now and I am so tired of it. I am tired of being scared. I hate what I see so much. I just want it to stop. How do I stop it?
Thank you for listening.