dear Dags, thanks for posting a comment to us, and also for joining the site.
When someone suffers from PTSD it creates problems down the line, which not only affect you but with the person or people you are living with, that's that nature of this illness, and it's by no way your fault.
People can be madly in love with each other, but for some reason this relationship or marriage will not work if they have continual conflicts of interest as well as in their attitude towards how the kids should be raised, who to see and what they can do.
My wife was the dominant one in our marriage, so eventually I just accepted what she said, rather than have an argument, that was far better than disrupting the family, but there were many times when I didn't believe what she said.
When we went on holidays or went sight seeing my sons had to always take their friends, so we had to pay for 4 kids, as these friends never brought any money from their parents, so it became costly, but I still loved her.
My love for her was not strong enough to keep the marriage going and she divorced me, but prior to this I still believe that she was seeing someone behind my back, which I was distraught about.
To love one so deeply means a hell of a lot, but if it's not reciprocated, this then requires a great deal to win her back, which is what you dearly want and I'm sure the kids want this, so there would have to be a compromise, not only by you but also by her.
If you start taking your meds again then is this going to get the marriage back together again.
My wife wouldn't get any professional help and she stopped taking her AD's, but if I can say is that she was much better when taking them, even while I was struggling with my own demons.
I would really like your opinion so that we can talk. Geoff.