So I'm 21 and as far back as grade 6 I knew I was gay, that was something I knew back then I had to hide and it made me distance myself from all my friends and my family. I was always alone throughout school thinking what if my friends found out i was gay and didn't accept it, then they would hate me anyway, so why bother being friends at all. That thinking left me so lonely and sad that I cry almost everyday. I finally got up the courage to tell my family I was gay and they were accepting of it to my surprise, I thought that now it was out in the open I wouldn't be so depressed anymore. Within a week of coming out I was back to feeling tired, sad and empty all the time. Now I'm 21 and have no friends, no job, a family I barely talk to (even though i still live with them), and I don't know how to talk to anyone about the way I'm feeling. I can't afford help for myself and even if i could i don't think i could physically get the words out. I'm still crying myself to sleep, barely eating and never leaving the house. I'm scared this is going to ruin my life, but I just don't know what to do.