I totally hear and agree with you say. One of the hardest things to cope with as part of my anxiety, depressiosn etc.The whole philsophy of do unto others as you expect them to do unto you, but it really does feel at times that is all bollocks.
And no you don't do things for others , in expectation of reward or acknowledgement, but it would be good if it came back.
I've had and continue to have trouble with why People I worked with for 9 years in what was a caring profession,who I always supported when needed , emotionally or professionally .Then when I hit this time of physical injuries and Acute stress disorder, just slid away out of my life and were't there for me. They did all the training in mental health , supporting each other, caring for team members as I did. Could probably quote you the symptoms of burn out , they could walk the walk and talk the talk, but weren't and still aren't giving support.Yes, I was unsurprised by some , but devastated by those who I'd considered close friends were gone . Friends who I had always been there for when they'd had it hard.Like it's catching or something
the biggest help has been from someone who I hadn't previously known that well but we now support each other as we travel the same mental health road.
And no, like you I'm not saying it's a point scoring excercise but it is very hard not to be bitter and cynical.
Like you I'm waiting for a switch in my fortune, for things to stop happening. I saw my GP 3 days ago and we discussed how I was making progress and to keep doing my various things to stay well, self-care and reduce stress levels. I came out feeling positive and so did my partner, then we find out we have a major behavioural issue with my teenage daughter to deal with. Plummet back to reallity and a very shattered husband ,work out how to deal with daughter, used up what ever levels of adrenaliln/cortisol I had left. Took the next day off work because I was physically and mentally cactus. I'd only just gone back to work.
And yes I struggle to stay true to myself, my spiritual beliefs to help and nurture others, but yes it's emotionally expensive, more stress you don't need when it comes back in your face. Shattering to what is already a poor self-worth, and I to o wrestle and I don't know the answer.
Except to say that I've found a lot more loving warmth, empathy, support from total strangers on BB than anywhere else, in the short time I've been on the forum.
Maybe one of those 'wise ones' can help us both, Chibam, even if we are both whingers.
Take care of you ,Yarnartisan