Hi there Tiffany
Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for providing this post (and also another one). :) It’s really awesome that you have been able put down this kind of post in particular.
I would think so many of us on this site would be able to nod our heads in agreeance with a lot of what you said – although, having said that, we really don’t know your partner, so we can’t be commenting too much on this (said just for giggles) :)
I must say though that you’ve provided a really well worded description of what you’re facing on a continual basis – and then for yesterday for it to explode out the way it did. One thing I’d like to ‘correct’ you on is the word you used – embarrassing – your first word used of, hardest, I think fits much better. Ok, it might have felt a little tough and a bit embarrassing to break down in front of colleagues, but again, I would think there’d be so many of us who have done that. I know I have. But it’s not something we should be embarrassed about, because we suffer with a terrible illness. I tell you one thing though, I bet you were really drained and exhausted after that particular break-down? Overwhelming emotion can just leave you really zonked out.
I guess also with your job you’d have daily stressors as well that you have to contend with; and no doubt you’ve got other ones as well that are causing your illness.
May I ask what other professional help that you are having? I know you’ve said you’re on medication, so that means you’ve either got a GP or a psychiatrist prescribing those. Do you have a psychologist or counsellor that you see from time to time?
Again I’m really pleased that you’ve come to Beyond Blue and posted – and given so much insight into your own battles and even more so, the finish to this particular post where you conveyed so much positive energy. I do look forward to hearing from you again – and I also feel that you could become a valuable person on this site; with the way you express yourself and positive aspects that you’ve described; could be very useful for others to hear.