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  1. Doolhof
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    18 December 2020

    Hi Everyone,

    I did try and do a search for Christmas 2020 on the forum and kept getting a message stating something like "Page not found" every time I tried to click on the word Christmas. Maybe the Grinch is trying to steal Christmas yet again!

    If there is another thread about Christmas, can someone pleas let me know.

    Not everyone celebrates Christmas, I understand that. This year it may be especially difficult as well due to Covid and so many other issues people have in life.

    This year will be our first without my Dad. As I was decorating the tree I was thinking of Dad and the Christmas celebrations we had as children. Way back then we were able to go out in the scrub and cut down a native Christmas tree.

    This year I have to work Christmas Day so I won't be able to attend Church, nor a Christmas Eve service as family are coming for dinner. I am very thankful that at present we are still able to plan for some of the family to be together. I have no idea how busy I will be Christmas Day at work. Hopefully people will be relaxed and happy!

    Christmas can mean different things to everyone. It may mean nothing and that is okay too. If you'd like to share thoughts here about Christmas, the end of this year or any other celebration you have happening soon, please do so.

    Today I am trying to boil a Christmas pudding! I have to ensure the saucepan has water for 3 hours! In the past I have neglected this step and ended up cooking the saucepan when it ran out of water and the pudding was a rock!

    Wishing you all a great day no matter how you are spending it.

    Peace to all, cheers from Dools

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    18 December 2020
    Hi Dools thanks for the Christmas wishes.The first Christmas after losing a loved one can so hard.It sounds like you have some great memories with your father at Christmas time.Sounds like work will keep you busy this year..
    My self I will try and go for a motorbike ride in the morning and then I will have a bit of remembrance at 2 pm for my mother.
    I hope you have a merry Christmas Dools and everyone else on here and hope you can give yourself a special treat on the day Dools.
    Take care,
    Mark
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    18 December 2020 in reply to Matchy69

    Hi Mark,

    Thanks for your response. A motorbike ride sounds great. I might book myself one as a treat seeing as I am working over Christmas.

    I like to light a candle for loved ones who are not with us at Christmas.

    My boss told me that Christmas lunch will be provided for all who have to work, so I am looking forward to that! We are going to my In-Laws in the evening so I won't have to prepare any food Christmas Day. That is a bonus for me!

    Hope you have a peaceful day Mark and the memories are not too overwhelming.

    Cheers from Dools

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  4. Moonstruck
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    18 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hello everyone.....people who have known me for ages on Forum, are aware that I am not, definitely not a Christmas person. I won't explain my reasons, would take too long. Can someone explain to me....that unless you are of the Christian faith and genuinely believe that December 25 is the day to celebrate the virgin birth of Jesus Christ (son of God and your saviour)...I fully understand your devotion to Christmas.

    If you don't fall into this category, can you explain to me why you go to so much fuss, endure so much pressure, spend so much money, read shopping catalogues, make decorations, cook elaborate lunches or dinners, spend so much time choosing gifts, lighting up your houses and the list goes on....why? Just tell me why you do it?Surely these things can be done any time and date in the year? Showing your love for family or friends, cooking lovely food, giving someone a gift? Why do you buy into the hype?

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    18 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hi Moonstruck,

    I don't fall into that category but I do give gifts and plan decorations (whether I actually do it is another story). For me, it's just a way of appreciating the people who are in my life and having a bit of fun. It doesn't mean I don't show love for my family or friends on other days. It's just nice to have a day of celebration sometimes.

    Cheers,
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    18 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hi Moon,

    Thanks for your sharing. It is interesting (for me) being a Christian, believing in the birth of Jesus and what that means to me and also falling into that trap of expectations around Christmas.

    I agree with you, some people do seem to celebrate Christmas, all the business and chaos just because the day is marked on the calendar as Christmas so they feel they have to participate.

    Christmas can be an opportunity to bring people together. Yes, we can do that any day of the year. I wonder if people would make such an effort though if you just invited them to come over because it is say the 5th of April.

    To me the Christian story about Christ includes sharing, the giving of gifts, letting people know they are loved and cared for.

    Many different nationalities have their own traditions and customs around Christmas and New Years. I remember looking at a calendar once and being surprised at the dates some countries celebrate New Year's Eve. I remember thinking I could do a trip around the world finding out about the customs and beliefs of different people all through a year.

    Moon do you have any specific day you do like to celebrate, or is every day an opportunity to do so for you?

    Cheers to you from Dools

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    18 December 2020 in reply to Emmen

    Hi M,

    Thanks for your perspective and for sharing your thoughts.

    This year I am making gifts for family and friends. To me that has more meaning and purpose this year. I didn't want to be part of the business and racing around at the last minute because I am not organised and have no idea what to buy people.

    Next year I am going to try to be more social and to spend more time with loved ones when possible.

    Last year I enjoyed Googling Christmas in different countries around the world.

    Cheers to you from Dools

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    18 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hi Dools. I hope you do get to enjoy some part of Christmas. And thank you for your stories here as well. All that I will say about your cooking exploits is ... been there, done that and worse. Went to a blue christmas service last night cause not everyone enjoys Christmas. Though we will "celebrate" it twice, once on the day and then with parts somewhere around new year's eve/day.

    So to those who enjoy this time... wishing you a very happy and joyous Christmas.

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    19 December 2020 in reply to smallwolf

    Hi Tim,

    Hope the Blue Christmas service was meaningful for you and those attending. There can be lots of reasons why people don't enjoy Christmas.

    I feel there can be a lot of pressure, be it real or in our minds. Let's face it, if we struggle to get on with life nearly every day of the year, how are we expected to be filled with good cheer for Christmas! I'm going to try to make the most of what ever happens.

    Oh yer! The Christmas pudding looks good. The gluten free one I made the day previously doesn't look so flash! Custard will fix that issue! Ha. Ha.

    Cheers all from Dools

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    19 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hey Dools, I saw your comment about your gluten free Christmas Pudding, I'm heading back to the gluten free world so I GET IT!
    I think custard would sort it too lol.

    THANK YOU for beginning this thread about Christmas!

    I'm SO HAPPY you did. I'll admit I didn't have the courage to do it lol!

    We ABSOLUTELY DO celebrate Christmas in our home.
    The birth of baby Jesus is the focal point for me.
    I understand the History of changing the date etc but I'm fine with whatever works lol...

    In the lead up to this Christmas I've had melancholy memories but they haven't triggered C-PTSD this year, thankyou God lol.

    I made the decision to PUSH PAST those memories to create NEW and flexible family traditions. The Values I'm focussing on are: FUN RELATIONSHIPS JOY FORGIVENESS & GRATITUDE, in any order that suits.

    Because of this thread I texted my brother and s-i-l to say they're always welcome on Christmas Day and ANY time of the year.

    I'll celebrate Advent, as I used to, from now on.

    My most FAVOURITE memory of Christmas Day was when my children were little and all living at home. I had created "The Road to Bethlehem" from the front door leading all around the house! lol a jewelled path with a pregnant Mary on her donkey and Joseph leading the way.

    I read Advent stories to the children every night. We lit a special candle and talked about the miracles of Christmas.

    Then early on Christmas morning my youngest daughter woke up and RAN to the stable and saw little baby Jesus in his manger, then ran and woke all the other children yelling "Baby Jesus is BORN!" over and over again.
    What I loved about this beautiful scene was that ALL the children ran past their Santa sack full of toys to wonder at the scene I'd created in the stable.
    Even though I know it took ALOT longer for the 3 Wise Men to be there, they were there and the children had added all their little trucks and stuffed toys around the stable over time to BE THERE for the birth.

    This was so precious to witness.

    I'm not ashamed to spend whatever I want to on Christmas, birthdays, Hallowe'en or our Happy UN-birthdays too all year. This year I'm grateful we're all here and to be able to help stimulate the economy on top.

    Praying that everyone receives Christmas miracles this year and every year.
    Love EM

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    19 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hello Dools and Everyone else, I sincerely hope and want to wish those that do believe in Xmas a Happy Time because it's one day in the year where people can find it comforting to commemorate their loved one by bringing them into their Christmas celebrations in some way.

    I'm sorry that your dad won't be with you this year and you have all my sympathy, but light a candle in his honour and write a letter so you can put it in a 'time box' to read in the years to come.

    Hi Moonstruck, I know what you're saying as I am not religious myself, and have said this many times over the years, but Xmas to me, means a happy time for all the children counting down the days until Father Xmas delivers their presents.

    I know my two little granddaughters are so excited, and to me, that's beautiful, but for me, it's another day.

    Hope I haven't hurt anyone but wish you all a Happy Xmas.

    Geoff.

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    19 December 2020 in reply to geoff
    Yes Geoff, I certainly understand about the excitement of children and when my grand-kids were a bit younger, of course I went along with all the Christmassy stuff, wouldn't dream of spoiling it for them...... however.....kids grow older and no longer wait eagerly for "Santa" to arrive...... just curious what will make Christmas a happy time for you when you don't have the children's joy to witness. What delight will it hold for you then?
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    20 December 2020 in reply to ecomama

    Hi EM,

    Thank you for your lovely Christmas story, I remember as a child being involved in the nativity plays at Church. One year we had a Church picnic out in the scrub, we acted out the nativity scene and sang carols into the evening. I was dressed up as an angel and recall thinking just how amazing it was to celebrate Christ's birth out in the bush.

    I'm making gifts this year for Christmas as finances are not all that flash. My depression overwhelms me when I go shopping, I can spend hours looking at stuff with no idea what to get anyone. Quite often I return home even more depressed, stressed and with nothing! My gifts might not be what people want either. Ha. Ha.

    I like the values you are focusing on too EM.

    Wishing you a Christmas with all those blessings. Cheers from Dools

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    20 December 2020 in reply to geoff

    Hi Geoff,

    I hope you do have an enjoyable day for Christmas, if you are celebrating or not I hope it goes well. Will you be seeing your grand children for Christmas? I guess that may depend where you live as well and what is going on with Covid.

    Thanks for the suggestion of writing Dad a letter. I have done that in the past for my children and it does help...once the tears have stopped flowing! I will be lighting a candle as well.

    It will be interesting at work on Christmas Day to see how all the different people are feeling and acting. I hope my greetings of welcome will help in some way to make their days brighter. It will keep me in a happy spirit as well during all the business!

    Cheers to you Geoff from Dools

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    20 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hi Moon,

    I have spent many Christmas Days in tears due to broken dreams, cruel words from others and being excluded. My husband and I were told by both our families for years that we were not included in Christmas because we had no children and Christmas was just for kids.

    My husband tells me it is just a money making racket and there have been times when I don't have a gift under the tree.

    Some of my happiest Christmas Days have been spent with people who are not relatives, other people who for one reason or another had no family to be with for Christmas Eve or Christmas Day.

    This year my Mum wants to be with us even though I had invited my parents to our place for years and they never came.

    Now my sister in law has a new partner and her children have their own plans, we have been invited to their home for Christmas Tea.

    I'm trying to let go of the ghosts, the hurt and pain of past Christmas so it does not ruin this year for myself and others.

    Many people despise Christmas for different reasons. Some people love it.

    Thinking of you Moon. Cheers from Dools

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    20 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hi all.....there is a lady who has just started a thread called Dreading Xmas and she sounds very alone and needing some help or someone to talk to who feels the same....if anyone has time to find her and send her some love and understanding.......(I would suggest not emphasising what a wonderful, cheerful, loving, festive, "family" time of year you think this is.....I think that would make her feel worse, so be kind if you answer).....

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    20 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hey Dools

    Indeed I've had many Christmases with no family and offered to work on Christmas Day and other special occasions so that others can be with their families and loved ones.
    I kept Praying, hoping and believing that things would change for me.

    They did, so I'm grateful.

    I'm sorry your families treated you this way. It's a difficult thing to overcome!

    All things can be forgiven but it doesn't mean we have to put ourselves in harm's way again by keeping company with those who harmed us, or talk to them, or even KNOW them lol!

    I've enacted so much No Contact - it's my middle name I think.
    I had to, to protect my children and myself.

    I've also had years of not being able to afford presents, and most definitely made PLENTY of them over the years! What are some of the things you hand crafted? I would LOVE to hear about them! It may give others some ideas. Starting early in the year helped me alot with time to do it all.

    One thing that delighted my sister in law (with crazy expensive taste) was my terracotta pot full of basil. The next year I planted hers in September for Christmas and she kept commenting how lovely it looked lol... it was hers and she didn't know it.
    I did that type of thing for many people with lavender and rosemary I had propagated (if you want to know HOW then ask on the gardening thread!).

    I also made Christmas sweets and baked cookies, then put them in jars I had upcycled and just tied a ribbon around them.

    My s-i-l still uses the tablecloth I made for her every Christmas. I'd embroidered her children's names on each corner. Sewed a little house in the centre with their family name and the year.
    She even gets it dry cleaned! LOL. Little did she know the chequered cloth cost me $2 from a throw out table at Spotlight. But it took me a long time to stitch around the edge and fray the edge, then sew the rest.

    Many Blessings Dools.
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    21 December 2020 in reply to ecomama

    Hi EM and All,

    Next year I think I will start making things in January, then I will have enough to share around!

    Over the years I had made some Christmas decorations from material and other products. I was at my sister's one year before Christmas and she was going through stuff to take to her work place to decorate it for Christmas. She was telling me all the crap she was pulling out was horrible but good enough for work.

    I pointed out to her all that crap were items I had made. She told me it still looked awful but people at work seemed to like it.

    This year I have sewn some various bags, holders for water bottles when people are out walking and bowls from cotton rope. I made up some succulent gardens in large bowls I bought from the Op Shop and will be making Christmas food treats as well which I can put in jars and decorate.

    This year I am not going to wrap the gifts people can choose what they like. If they don't like they don't have to choose. Ha. Ha.

    Hope you have a lovely Christmas EM. Thanks for the blessings, same to you. Cheers from Dools

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    21 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hello Moonstruck, I'll only be seeing my granddaughters via video, they maybe coming to see me after Xmas that depends on many issues, they certainly want to, but can't be sure.

    I only pretend that I enjoy Xmas for them, but my family/friends know how I actually feel, it's just another day, although my son who is my carer has put up a Xmas tree, last year and this year.

    I don't like saying how I feel because there are so many people who do believe in what Xmas stands for and they have every right to do so, I, however, am not someone who is religious and don't believe in these festivities.

    As the years pass by I respectfully don't debate or ask any questions, some people like the strawberry flavour, while others prefer chocolate and you can't convince either to change.

    All my family ring me on Xmas day, I ask them not to but it's still good to talk with them about anything else.

    Take care.

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    21 December 2020 in reply to geoff

    Hi Geoff,

    This thread is for everyone. If Christmas is a time you don't believe in or don't enjoy, it is okay for you to say so. There will be no judgement here. Some people do dislike Christmas with a passion for many reasons.

    I know someone who likes Christmas for the food, they don't usually get a roast in summer! Boxing Day is the highlight for them as they get to watch the Boxing Day Test Match!

    Geoff, I wish you lovely phone calls from family, may they happen often and not just on Christmas Day.

    Cheers to you from Dools

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    21 December 2020 in reply to geoff

    Hi Geoff.....I am glad you understand where I am coming from. It's just that...I don't shove my opinions on "Christmas" and all it entails down others' throats...(except I do vent on here, where I thought we were allowed to openly and honestly)...I mean in my everyday life...I certainly don't care at all if they go all out to enjoy "the day" whatever that means....I don't comment negatively on their habits and activities...

    however, I do feel as if I have the other point of view shoved repeatedly down my own throat every year and it starts earlier and earlier.....I constantly get asked "what are you doing for Xmas?"...."are you going to your family, or are they coming here to you" "have you done all your Xmas shopping yet?" with my eyes and ears assaulted by cardboard cut-outs, outrageously expensive ostentatious light displays, Carols that have no relevance whatsoever to Australa or our way of life...reinforcing over and over again....loved ones, family, get togethers, love, love, love........is any thought ever given to the devastating effect this constant verbal and visual torture has on those who have NO love, family, friends in their lives? It's like rubbing their faces in it...taunting them......"Look, look what you don't have!"

    And no, in case anyone is wondering...I am not one of these folks who have absolutely no love in my life...I have friends, I have fabulous grown up kids (althought separated from me geographically, and not just on December 25)......until last May when he died, I had a loving partner and No, I don't miss him more now because "it's Christmas"....why should I?

    You have a nice Christmas Day too Geoff....but then, I hope you have a nice day whether its December 25 or not, so what's the difference? No one has explained the difference to me yet...still waiting.

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    21 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Hey Dools

    Your pressies sound LOVELY! (How rude of your sister btw lolol dear me).

    I thought it would be lovely to have a CRAFTING thread lol.... my cup runneth over with threads I've started but WHY NOT hey?

    It's Christmas after all but who needs an excuse? I don't, clearly lol.

    I pick my kids up very late from work often and last night it was SO BEAUTIFUL to see whole houses LIT UP with colourful Fairy lights!

    A home near my daughter's has a huge blow up Santa and his reindeer all inflated and it just feels JOYOUS to me! That's all you see in the day time but at night when the lights are all on IT'S BREATHTAKING!

    I just LOVE Christmas.

    I've ALMOST finished my Christmas shopping lol... just one trip left tomorrow and my schedule for the Christmas Day cooking begins.

    I have lots of wrapping to do tonight and I put the Christmas Carols on and sing along.
    What's your favourite Christmas Carol people?

    I went all out even buying MYSELF some presents to wrap and put under the tree lol.

    We might even get some furniture moved around tonight too, it'll be a Christmas Miracle if this happens too hahaha.

    Love EM

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    21 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    hi Moon and all,

    Thanks for your empathy Moon. I am one of those with no one/no family that actually love me. This will be my 7th or 8th - starting to lose count - Christmas alone in my flat. It is a very painful time - I have found myself in bed almost all of December and just want it to end. I am not a scrooge and am genuinely happy for the children and families who have each other. But they have no idea what it is like for those of us alone. Likewise as you say all the commercialism of it and families/love/belonging/togetherness. When you are alone - truly alone - it really rubs salt into the already burning and aching wound.

    I found Covid has done this too. With all the talk of spending time at home with loved ones. People are not sensitive enough when talking like this. There are many of us alone, and for some of us it is not by choice. If I had a choice, I would have chosen a loving family and not narc abusers. I think unless people have walked the path alone, they just don't get it. Except there are some like you and most of the people on BB forums who have empathy and consideration of all people's feelings - which is comforting.

    For the first couple of Christmases alone in my flat - I phoned Lifeline to help me 'cope'/get through the day. But unfortunately as well meaning as all these support lines are - the common thread of advice is hope. I clung to that for those first couple of years. But now 7 or 8 Christmases alone, with nothing changing....hope is just delayed disappointment. It is merely words that people offer up. I will not be phoning them - as I haven't for several years now. I will just get by somehow as I do. But it is bloody painful, as is mothers day and every other family - happy family - together time...that is spent alone. With brochures, commercials, decorations, everything everywhere you look. Hence I have been in bed. With already severe depression - only made worse. And this year has taught me I have no friends..those who I thought were friends - know bits of my story and my being alone - not one ever has included me for Christmas - not even for a pot of tea. Not my idea of a friend and the true meaning of Christmas. But it is pleasing to have people like you acknowledge other people's pain. I know I have read a few others on the forums will be alone on Christmas too - and I send my kind thoughts to them also. Cheers.

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    21 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof
    Merry Christmas Dools, and thanks for posting this thread.
    I feel sure your Dad could see you decorating the tree, perhaps he's the star at the top!
    This festive season I'm sure is affecting us all, whether we're religious or not. For many of us it means valued time with our families at the very least (or the very most), but with borders and an ever changing world landscape slipping and a sliding...suddenly what was taken for granted makes loved ones seem very far. At least that's my experience of it.
    This year I am going to celebrate the resiliance of our Australian bush, and plan to have a modest Christmas picnic in a piece of bush decimated by fires a year ago and is now showing so much resiliance after recent rains.
    Why not me too? Why not us?
    Merry festive season to all and I wish you all love xo
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    22 December 2020 in reply to Moonstruck

    Hello Moon, Dools thank your lovely replies and I do understand what Xmas means to so many people, the celebrations, presents, food and drink and pure excitement for the young ones which I would never ever take away from them, especially the tears when one of their toys breaks, to me, that is heart breaking.

    To Golden82, being alone on Xmas day is only exemplified by this particular day, compared to any other day, where all you want is to left alone, not so much in a negative way, perhaps you may want to read a book, finish watching a movie, do some cooking/gardening or basically do nothing.

    It's a day where it seems everybody is 'enjoying' themselves, while you find nothing to excite or amuse yourself, so this feeling is magnified by 10, maybe 20 times more.

    Hi PinkFeather, I can see where the growth of new sprouts come back so quickly here the bushfires decimated everything, my concern is for the wildlife that upsets me, along with the houses been lost and wonder why people light them on purpose.

    I will be on the site to talk to, so you or anyone else can come and discuss anything you want to.

    Take care.

    Geoff.

  26. Doolhof
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    22 December 2020 in reply to golden82

    Hi golden82,

    I really am so sorry to read of your loneliness and anguish, if that be on Christmas Day, your Birthday or any day of the year. We all have a need to feel loved, nurtured and cared for.

    As I do have family and friends, I don't know what to write that may comfort you. I am not in your situation. I do know the misery and pain of depression though. I can only imagine what it is like for you being alone at any time.

    EM it certainly does sound like you are full of plenty of Christmas cheer! I'm not really prepared for Christmas this year! I will make the most of it though. We have food to offer and family to visit so I know I am extremely blessed. So many people don't have that.

    It can be hard finding that balance of respecting everyone at Christmas. I know so many people are hurting and struggling. At the same time I am wanting to let go of hurts from Christmas's past and enjoy this one despite all that went on in the year. Yes. I can try to enjoy every day and not just Christmas.

    PinkFeather I really like your plans for celebrating Christmas. As children we used to select a native Christmas tree from the scrub. I have one growing in our garden. I am going to cut the top off it and place it inside as a reminder of looking for a suitable tree with Dad as a kid.

    Mum will be here for her first Christmas without Dad so I am not sure if I will mention the symbolism to her or not.

    Geoff you have a huge heart and so much care for us all as do many people who post here. I hope you have some wonderful "chats" with people here on the forum over the coming days.

    Moon I've not walked your journey, I can feel your hurt and pain and acknowledge that any day of the year can be horrid, lonely and overwhelming. Listening to people talking about Christmas and all their plans must be really hard.

    This thread is for everyone to share the good, the bad and the down right horrible thoughts and feelings they have towards Christmas. Yes, it would be lovely if offering "hope" to someone was miraculously able to help them see the light at the end of the tunnel and for them to have an amazingly wonderful day!

    I have struggled with mental health issues and know it can be darn hard work and near impossible some days to keep going.

    So for those who love Christmas and want to share your joy, please do, to those who are struggling, share your thoughts as well.

    Cheers all from Dools

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  27. Moonstruck
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    23 December 2020 in reply to golden82

    Dear golden...write to me on Xmas day if you need to...and I promise to write back...xx

    (only if you need to..no pressure )...

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    25 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    To Everyone who celebrates Christmas,

    I wish you a very Happy Christmas. I hope you have a day filled with much joy, peace and blessings. Give all of those around you an extra smile, keep safe and enjoy your celebrations.

    To those who don't celebrate for what ever reason,

    If you are struggling today, my thoughts are with you, if you choose not to celebrate that is your choice. What ever you end up doing today, I hope you can look back at the end of the day and find something to be thankful for, even if it is for the food you have eaten, the comfort of your bed, the safety of being in your home or what ever else it might be for you.

    Thinking of you all, virtual hugs from Dools

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  29. ecomama
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    25 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Dearest Dools

    MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU TOO DOOLS!

    Extending my most sincerest wishes for a wonderful day at work today!
    Hope the mood is festive and everyone behaves themselves for you lol.

    Hope you get an AWESOME feast for lunch too! And the time to eat it 🙄😁.

    I've had THE quietest Christmas morning in over 30y this morning!
    All my kids are teens and over and LOVE a sleep in!

    Got to have cuddles with my pets, time for myself and time with all of you precious people on the forums.

    Whether yo believe in Christmas or not I Pray that many Christmas Blessings are bestowed upon you all today and every day.

    And that the Blessings we all already have are acknowledged by us all also.

    Thankyou for this safe space BB and Moderators! Thankyou for all the work you do for us to HAVE this safe space and you enjoy today also.

    Love EM

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  30. Pppanther
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    25 December 2020 in reply to Doolhof

    Merry Christmas Dools ( and everyone else that reads this) I hope everyone has a wonderful peaceful stress free day.

    I woke up alone and apart from my daughter and her boyfriend coming over later to visit for our customary Christmas day prawn cocktail, I will be alone for the rest of the day. And yes there is somebody I am missing today too. As you can see I'm new here so maybe I can stick around today and hope cheer some others up who are feeling down about Christmas. It really does make us feel better to help another person. Dools I am sorry you will be missing your Dad today, I hope you can find some comfort in whatever you choose to do.

    I agree that we all have a lot to be thankful today, whoever and where ever you are. We all live in a free and wonderful country and have Beyond Blue (and this forum) to be grateful for.

    I wish every single person who reads this a very Merry Christmas. I hope that you can find some peace and some happiness today and thank you to the many wonderful volunteers that keep Beyond Blue going

    Peace and love to all and if you see someone without a smile, give em one of yours.

    Panther

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