Hi Sophie M,
Thank you for your kind words and your concern. I'm so sorry that I'm not replying to everyone individually who has reached out to me and offered their support but my situation has worsened.
The abuse I am suffering has increased so I made the right decision after a suggestion from the Beyond Blue team to contact 1800 Respect. I have been trying to protect my husband from getting into trouble but its come down to my life.
I had a kind but very blunt lady who I web chatted with. She made me see that my husbands not protecting me in what he's doing to me so why am I trying so hard to protect him.
I think I needed a bit of tough love. I'm so sorry and I hope that you will all forgive me but I will be taking a break from the forums for a while until my mental health is in a better place. I may also be homeless again so I will be without a device to reply to anyone.
Please know that I truly appreciate everyone's kind words as I feel truly alone with no one I can talk to as I'm completely by myself as my mother now refuses to talk to me as she says I should be just happy that he even wants to touch me.
Its taken me a while but I realise now that I can't have her in my life any more as she is too toxic to my mental health. I deserve better. I'm really trying, I hope I'm not letting anyone down. Thank you.