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Topic: Night Owls (for those awake late and can't sleep)

  1. Emo
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    29 March 2021 in reply to Harpbird

    Hi Harpbird,

    Thank you for your kind words regarding my interview. I took your advice about taking a more laid back approach to the interview and I think it went well.

    My fingers are still crossed, it makes typing difficult lol! I hope that things are OK in your life.

    Regards,

    Emo.

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  2. Emo
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    29 March 2021 in reply to Matchy69

    Hi Matchy,

    Thank you for your kind words about my interview. I haven't heard back yet but I will let you know how it goes. It was terrifying but its a fear I have to cope with if I want to start my life again.

    I have been following your thread and your recent surgery. I'm not sure what the surgery was for as I think I missed that post but I hope that you are starting to feel better soon.

    You are such a caring person to reach out to others when you are going through so much yourself. I know that you have made a huge difference to other peoples lives. You should be so proud of yourself.

    Regards,

    Emo.

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  3. Matchy69
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    29 March 2021 in reply to Emo
    Hi Emo thankyou for your kind words t really means a l lot to me.I just try and show people they are not alone in their daily struggles and their are others who feeling what they are.
    Good on you for taking the courageous step of looking for work and going to an interview.I hope you fine something soon the start of great things to come for you.
    Take care,
    Mark.
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  4. Sleepy21
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    29 March 2021 in reply to Matchy69

    knowing u are alone makes things so much easier

    someetimes u feel like no one else has ever gone through the same stuff, and it's really hard to feel that way. thanks mark for sharing ur experiences to help ppl feel seen

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  5. Matchy69
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    29 March 2021 in reply to Sleepy21
    Thanks sleepy your words mean a lot to me.I think your kindness on here has many.
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  6. Missing user
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    31 March 2021
    hey all. anyone up and wanting to chat? no pressure.
  7. Guest 05
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    31 March 2021 in reply to Missing user

    Hello again mb. I've always been a night owl when the majority are resting. It's a time where I get most creative out of the 24hrs in day. What would you like to chat about mb?

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  8. Missing user
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    31 March 2021 in reply to Guest 05
    hey malaika, thanks for replying. me too, I have insomnia. I'm fine talking about anything
  9. Guest 05
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    1 April 2021 in reply to Missing user

    Hello mb, I've been reading some of your posts with others and Sophie M included encouraging you to stay afloat. Yes things are really difficult for you so Please.... take up some of those suggestions that others have given you. It's Your Time to look after yourself. Perhaps browsing on the thread about Self Care. I found it's very motivating and no doubt it may help you too. You're a precious gentle soul who's always encouraging others with your kind hearted words. It's your turn now.. at times medications take a while to work. t

    There are still so many beautiful things to think about. Yes, it's EXTREMELY difficult to reverse a negative thought into a positive thought. Sometimes it just doesn't come. Being here on the beyond blue forum is an positive move. mb I'm not an insomniac. its my body clock that's gone out of whack and to correct hasn't been an easy task so i Try to do one little at a time. No matter how small.it is, it's still a positive move.

    mb, have you any interests?and would you like to share with me? With kind regards

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  10. Guest 05
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    1 April 2021 in reply to Guest 05

    Goodmorning mb and those reading. I'm sorry if I came about the wrong way. This is all very new for me. I've never talked/chatted with anyone online other than those here on the beyond blue forums. I'm sorry mb in case I've have imposed on your private matters. It wasn't intentional. I've decided just to stick to my introduction and welcome thread and some of the staying well threads where I feel in a "safe place" for me at present.

    I felt I've overstepped my boundaries..

    Just hopped into bed all happy and satisfied of what I've accomplished during the night. This Owl ready to knock off from all night shift duty work... with kind regards

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  11. Emo
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    1 April 2021

    Hi Everyone,

    I'm feeling completely overwhelmed right now. I didn't get the job that I was interviewed for which has broken me as I feel like I've lost my last chance to finally get freedom. It really hurts.

    I've also been dealt another terrible punch in the stomach as I've just found out that my Uncle is extremely sick and they don't think he will make it through the night. It's all happened in the last few hours.

    I don't know what to do, I'm trying to stay strong but its all just a blur right now. I was already feeling very depressed as I approach the first easter without my dad. I know nothing will ever be the same again but I just want to be able to stop crying for a while.

    I was going so well with my dads passing but it's gotten really bad in the last few weeks. I feel like I'm drowning but I'm trying to come to the surface but someone is holding me down under the water.

    I'm sorry, I think this has turned into a muddled mess of words but I'm just so lost right now. I just want to get my life back.

    Regards,

    Emo.

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  12. Matchy69
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    1 April 2021 in reply to Emo
    I am sorry Emo you didn't get the job.That must feel like a real kick in the stomach for you.I hope you can try again to find something.
    Ian so sorry to hear about your uncle.I have been in that situation where you are just waiting for the news.You are in a grieving process but can't fully grieve properly.Sending you big hugs.
    Take care,
    Mark.
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  13. quirkywords
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    1 April 2021 in reply to Emo

    Emo.so sorry s out the job and that you are not doing so well.
    you have tried so hard and it seems unfair to miss out on the job.

    You are a strong person and you are supported here.

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  14. Lillylane
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    2 April 2021 in reply to Emo

    Hi Emo,

    You’ve had a lot to deal with!

    I understand approaching Easter brings up all sorts of difficult thoughts and feelings when we’ve lost someone dear to us. I struggle with it too.

    But you will be able to move forward. When we’re overwhelmed it can take a bit of time and self care to be able to see it.

    Big hugs from me too Emo xx

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  15. Missing user
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    5 April 2021

    Hi all, only just found this thread again. Came to ask if anyone is awake.

    Malaika - yes, I go on positive threads such as the self care often. 

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  16. Shelll
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Missing user
    Hi Tayla, yeah I am awake. Not sure what time you posted though
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  17. Missing user
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Shelll
    Hi Shelll. I can't remember either, haha. Around 10 or 11pm I think?
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  18. Emo
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Lillylane

    Hi Lillylane,

    Thank you for your kind words. I'm in a very bad place right now. I can't stop thinking very bad thoughts. I'm trying to fight against it.

    I can't reach out for help.

    I'm so sorry I should be keeping these thoughts to myself but I'm hurting so much. I just need some help so badly.

    Regards,

    Emo.

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  19. Sophie_M
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Emo
    Hi Emo,

    We are so sorry to hear that you are struggling with your thoughts. It sounds very difficult and overwhelming. It takes a lot of courage and strength to reach out for support and we are so glad that you have done so. We hope that you can get some support here, the community will be here to listen and chat with you. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts, we would recommend that you contact a crisis service:
    •             Lifeline – 13 11 14
    •             Suicide Call Back Service – 1300 659 467
     
     We have sent you a private email offering some further support.
    Sophie
     
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  20. Lillylane
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Emo

    It’s OK Emo, no need to apologise. I’m sorry to hear you’re hurting and hope you feel safe to share with us here.

    Take care,
    Lillylane

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  21. Matchy69
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Emo
    Hi Emo I am so sorry you are struggling at the moment.I am here if you need to talk.
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  22. Missing user
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    6 April 2021 in reply to Emo
    Hi Emo, are you ok? I'm here for you. Are you safe?
  23. Sophie_M
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    7 April 2021 in reply to Emo
    Dear Emo,

    We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming . We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

    Our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we're worried about you. 
    We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
    Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 
     
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  24. Emo
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    8 April 2021 in reply to Sophie_M

    Hi Sophie M,

    Thank you for your kind words and your concern. I'm so sorry that I'm not replying to everyone individually who has reached out to me and offered their support but my situation has worsened.

    The abuse I am suffering has increased so I made the right decision after a suggestion from the Beyond Blue team to contact 1800 Respect. I have been trying to protect my husband from getting into trouble but its come down to my life.

    I had a kind but very blunt lady who I web chatted with. She made me see that my husbands not protecting me in what he's doing to me so why am I trying so hard to protect him.

    I think I needed a bit of tough love. I'm so sorry and I hope that you will all forgive me but I will be taking a break from the forums for a while until my mental health is in a better place. I may also be homeless again so I will be without a device to reply to anyone.

    Please know that I truly appreciate everyone's kind words as I feel truly alone with no one I can talk to as I'm completely by myself as my mother now refuses to talk to me as she says I should be just happy that he even wants to touch me.

    Its taken me a while but I realise now that I can't have her in my life any more as she is too toxic to my mental health. I deserve better. I'm really trying, I hope I'm not letting anyone down. Thank you.

    Regards,

    Emo.

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  25. randomx
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    8 April 2021 in reply to Emo

    Pleased to say my training, l call it , is going very well and as long as l can by pass bad thoughts at the time l'm back to crashing at12 -1am'ish now. Usually wake about 7 , poke around on the pc for awhile then get up for work but l am getting some sleep.

    rx

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  26. Matchy69
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    8 April 2021 in reply to randomx
    Hi Randomx that's good your training is going well and you are getting some sleep.
    I wake up a few times during the night and having a few weird nightmares.I am just so tired during the day and I have the kids this week so I can't have a nap during the day.
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  27. randomx
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    8 April 2021 in reply to Matchy69

    God yeah you need it for the kids for sure.

    l've been at it 12 mths now , slight relapse for 2mths in that , bad thoughts , but l'm back on track. Pretty pleased with it really l've gone from yrs n yrs of 2 n 3hrs a night to a good 6-7-sometimes even 8hrs now.

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  28. ecomama
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    8 April 2021 in reply to Emo

    Dearest Emo

    You're not letting anyone down by taking a break. Big hugs!

    We all care about you and what that 1800RESPECT Counsellor said is 100% correct.

    Keep safe!

    Love EMxxxx

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  29. ecomama
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    8 April 2021 in reply to randomx

    Hey rx

    Those are really impressive positive changes to your sleep patterns!

    Maybe those delicious tomatoes you grew are helping?
    lol.

    Just joking, all your rewards are from all YOUR hard work and discipline!
    WELL DONE YOU.

    I'm off to make some tucker and bought some fancy textas at Officeworks to play with.
    I'm gonna hang out with the kids and get out all our textas!

    Hope that everyone is keeping well.

    Love EM

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  30. Sleepy21
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    9 April 2021

    Hi night owls!

    EM love the fancy highlighters. Cute!

    Lately i've been thinking my insomnia is just anxiety (No "Just" - anxiety is huge....but anyways...)

    more anxious = less sleep for me.

    I was very anxious for a few days and kept up all through the night. I was able to resolve the anxiety and got a decent night sleep. Now tonight I'm quite anxious again so that's hard.
    No sleep for me.
    I'm in acceptance mode. There are always difficult nights for me.
    Even if we talk about sleep hygiene, rain sounds, and all that cool stuff, it's fun, but still, I can't sleep.

    For now.
    Always staying open to change. But for now.

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