i seem to be going through so much lately, and i feel so alone.
This lady in my street was rude. she came up to my house at 8pm at night randomly, although we spoke to her earlier that day. she was there until nearly 11pm. i told her i had to take my medication and i had to go. she didn't care, kept talking.
i don't have a problem with people venting because we all need to do that. but this went on for 3 hours, her whole life story, just repeating it. whenever i tried to tell her something about me to make her feel less alone or whatever, she cut me off and kept making it about her. that's just selfish and to talk to someone at 10.30pm. i had 100 or so mozzie bites after it, and i'm allergic to them.
i tried to be polite and talk instead of telling her to go away but if it happens again or if i talk to her somehow then i will, because she just loaded all of her baggage so to speak onto me. i can barely deal with my own problems. i tried to listen and offer suggestions but she kept pushing them aside.
she told me she saw a psychologist on telehealth and it was crap because of the connection so she won't do it again. without being rude i said that's stupid and you should try again, you have to be prepared for that stuff happening, it's normal. it doesn't mean the psychologist is bad and won't help just because of bad connection. it happens when i see my psychiatrist nearly every time and i don't complain and say i don't want to see him again.
i gave her suggestions of contacting helplines and psychologists, she said "oh those things make you worse". yes that's her opinion which she's entitled to but every suggestion i gave she pushed it aside and wasn't even thankful.
if i can get a psychologist and keep trying after many bad traumatic experiences, she can too. i would rather that than her talk to me for 3 hours about her life story at 10.30pm. like i said i didn't tell her to leave but i was getting annoyed and distressed because i have my own problems.
i try to be that type of person who is there for people, but that annoyed me. thought it was selfish & rude.