I am looking after someone very close to me (serious health issues) but feel I am running on empty. I was already broken so what ever I can give does'nt leave much. I'm not going anywhere, I can't. This feels very hollow. Strangers who know where I am coming from but still can't feel my sore thumb, how could you, you don't know me.

Hello Statesman

Welcome and thank-you for having the courage to post too!

The forums are a safe and non judgemental place for you to post Statesman. You mentioned that you are looking after someone thats close to you with serious health issues. I understand what you are going through as I am doing the same.

Is there anything we can help you with? Posting on a forum can feel somewhat hollow...when we start to post

Just some background...I am ex corporate and posted here in Jan 2016 after needing help with a bad episode of depression. There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too!

I do know that you are not alone here Statesman

we are really good listeners

my kind thoughts

Paul

Hi Statesman and welcome to the forums :)

It is really good you are helping your friend. It is important to also look after yourself. Have you discussed with your doctor possible respite options. This gives you a bit of a break and someone can look after your friend. My grandma has MS. She went into respite sometimes or on a thing called camp break away (i think that's what it was called). They both found it helpful as he could get a bit of a break (note, sometimes he physically needed a break and sometimes he would need it for medical reasons, like a colonoscopy etc). Maybe it is something to look into.

I Hear you but know (feel) I walk alone. I won't go, take a break. They would never do that to me and there is no way I could or would want to. Things are getting busy again so I really need to be here. Its a car crash you know is going to happen and you can't stop it. There is nothing you can do. You hold on but its going to happen. Every day you have that feeling like on the first night when your away and your a long way from home. Your on edge, ready for anything and you just want to be home and the way things were. To feel happy and safe. To want