Hi Faithfalls Summer Rose and readers ☺
Good on you reaching out darl it's often not easy is it and welcome to bb this really is an incredible place. It's a caring community with lovely people as you can see with Summers beautiful post ☺
How sad how you're feeling. Loneliness is a cruel hard place to be. There are some possibles to ease that. Summers touched on the medical side which can be of great help to you. It's very hard doing pain alone but rest assured you're not alone here ☺
If you do a search here Faithfall for "loneliness what" is enough to bring up "Loneliness what choices are there" which has a few suggestions. Also theres a few threads on loneliness which could if you're interested be of some comfort.
I think it's very thoughtful of you not wanting to be at the kids too often. I feel for you. I noticed you spoke of a friend do you think maybe you might be able to go out or have coffee together
Depending where you live there might be coffee clubs around, are you ok meeting new people?
Another thought is maybe joining a club whether sport, cards could be knitting group craft where you could meet people.
And congratulations from me as well. Fantastic backing off on the drink it wouldnt be easy you're showing tremendous strength and a wise move.
You mentioned you're not sleeping as well as a result I wonder do you exercise at all which if a gym or walking or ? you enjoy is very stimulating I find being out and about amongst it all and people. Sometimes a chat a couple of words smiles or simply being around them as opposed to home alone can have great affects on our mental health (MH) as well as endorphines waking up. Not sleeping tends to make us vulnerable and brings on emotions of sadness. This is where medical contact can initiate good help.
I hope todays a little easier for you. You know how it's hard to think of positives, keep at it they're still there just buried atm and when you think of anything at all you like whether it be taste visual a memory art clothing people you like love.. feel the goods that make you like it I'm finding is kinda meditation and gives a bit of warmth, the more we practice and habit positives the less room for negatives.
Hope to hear how you're getting on if you're up to it youre welcome to talk anytime
All the best and if you can keep at the back of your mind it won't necessarily be this way all the time ☺ especially that you're reaching out.