Hi RT and all
Thanks for the kind words! I have probably left replying here a bit longer than planned, no real reason. Unfortunately my exemptions to get into Perth were all unsuccessful so unfortunately stuck in Melbourne for the forseeable future.
Ultimately this week was a blur between work stress, loneliness and slightly too much alcohol. Things with the girlfriend have got hard and we're in a weird limbo at the moment, we aren't broken up but we certainly aren't talking like a couple. There's just been too many misunderstandings and miscommunications, things just aren't what they were. We've tried having a few conversations which are somewhat productive but neither of us know what the next step to take is.
The more positive step that I have taken is that after this mess of a week, I have rushed to the GP and got myself a mental health treatment plan, something that is long long overdue! Have got a referral to speak to a counsellor (sadly it's telehealth, not in person) but definitely a big new part of my life that I've put off for a long time.
Meditation has been great, with the Calm app and it does help with sleep at times. And more importantly by doing it often (every day or two for the last couple of months) I've learned that you don't need to get frustrated when a day's meditation just isn't working as well as others. It's like running - some days you can clear your mind and get your breathing right, other days nothing works and everything aches. So hoping to continue that practice and become more attuned.
But also, it would just be nice for this lockdown to end :P