I debated posting here since I get anxious about putting myself out there, as anonymous as this forum is. But I have a lot in my mind and I need to pour it out somewhere. So here I am!
I'm a uni student in my second year, and as you can imagine, it hasn't been a great second year. I haven't been submitting assignments, barely going to online classes, barely able to concentrate--now I'll have to be held back another year to be able to graduate, and paired with my parents' expectations, it's a little too much for me.
I'm undiagnosed with anything, but that's only because I don't have the independence to--especially from my parents who feel 'everyone goes through anxiety', even though I feel mine is much more severe than normal. But I guess that's because I always try to not show it. I don't want to make my parents worry for their only child. But upon years of research, I suspect I may have depression, GAD and ADHD--a truly awful combo for my brain and my productivity! But I can't really know for sure until I get professionally diagnosed. (I have been experiencing ADHD symptoms since I was a child [a "creative brain", my dad says] though, and mental health issues since year 10...)
I just realised this makes my parents look bad--they do mean the world to me. They just don't really understand, I guess. And I'm scared they'll overreact once they do and make me feel worse. (I'm also part of the LGBT community and I'm not out, but that's a whole different ballpark...)
I feel I've rambled too much, so I'll stop here. Overall, haven't been doing great. But I'm glad I found this forum to let it out. I'll be around to give support to everyone too! Let's stay strong, especially during these circumstances!