I am new to the forum thing. Guilt and regret are my daily thought companions. From the outside, I am told I present solid and confident.
Yet inside I triple guess every word I say. Will someone see through me, or worse see me how I see myself.
After living with depression for 30+ years, medication and therapy more often than I can count, I still have down times. They can last minutes, days or weeks.
Forgiving myself for what I consider stuff ups is impossible it seems.
But I keep going because I want to be a survivor of depression, not a victim.
My thoughts, not sure if they help. Be kind to yourself.