Yes my psychiatrist is concerned that I am feeling depressed 95% of the time. We are currently trying out some new medication - well new for me.
I've been either depressed or hovering just above depressed since new year. Previously it depended on the mood swings that came and went with my bipolar. Winter is always a difficult time for me.
I have been hospitalized many times but not for a long while though. My depression used to be complicated with alcohol and drug use but I haven't used either for about 15 years now.
I have had a lot of issues to work through such as child abuse, anger management and homelessness to work through. These issues have been dealt with as they have arisen.
I think my latest big bout of depression is partly to do with my age (I am 61). I feel as though I've done a huge amount of things in my life and I've come to a place where I feel as though there is nothing left for me to do in life. I no longer even know what I like to do and seem to have lost interest in everything.
I have thought about taking up running again because I know I was more stable when I used to run. However, there seems to be some stigma around a woman of my age running. I know of men in their 70s that run marathons but I haven't found much around women my age running. Also getting started in running is very difficult sometimes even for people who aren't depressed. I've even stopped taking my dog for walks at the moment.
I feel so lonely and alone in the world most of the time. My life has made it difficult for me to have friends so I have no one I can turn to. Often I can go for weeks with my therapist or my GP being the only two people I communicate with.
I haven't yet read other threads by people with bipolar but I will. Perhaps it will help - especially if I find someone else going through what I am going through.