So, I'm gonna be an adult soon. Haven't posted in ages, but what else can you expect of someone who barely remembers what day it is?
I'm really struggling to see a future for myself. I constantly tried to tell myself that I know what I want and forced myself into that by choosing subjects like chemistry, but the recent exams made me realise how abhorrently stupid I am. I've never felt so disgusted with myself, I seriously don't think I can finish year 12.
I was looking at Uni courses since I promised to go to my family, but nothing grips me. I don't want to work, study, or do anything. I can't see myself as anything more than a pathetic dropout who won't ever learn any skills and just starve because I won't be able to sustain myself, and I am sure as hell am not staying in this household for any longer than I must.
It's a rant and a half, but I just have no idea if this is depression, something else or really just my brain being useless. if you can offer advice beyond "go to this website" I'd appreciate it.
tl;dr : I'm realising that I am too dumb to go to Uni and don't have a future, send help.