So grateful. Feel terrible at moment. Friend who I have opened up to was sharing some stuff as well has now closed up. She is so busy with her life, come to Friday arvos and i never hear from her over the weekend even if she says we will meet for walk. Come Monday's and she back saying I miss you, how are you. Love to catch up.???
I am trying to apply all the stuff I'm learning In my sessions about vulnerabilities, but I think I just keep returning to surrender mode because when we are together she makes me feel so nice, so cool to have this friendship in adulthood that i thought we had a connection. may be because like I've never had a good friend growing up as a teenager on a farm, always out of town, etc. Middle aged Mum now feeling like a child. Constant checking for chat msg, waiting, hoping to hear from her. Devo when I don't. It seems ridiculous.
I have tools to try and communicate this, I haven't had a chance, she always makes the rules about where, when we could catch up because if her life. Makes me feel like my life is busy as well.
I kind of , are am giving up on this special friendship. I feel so hurt.
I can't sleep past 2 in morning.
I don't think it's just me, maybe she is not the person I thought she was after all.
Sorry for long winded post.
Hope it makes some sort of sense?