Thanks so much for sharing Bella. I too had this experience,
fantastic organisation, friendly people but the job was a
I know the dilemma – ‘Is this just me panicking and I need to
give it time OR is this role excessively difficult and will lead to me crying
in the work toilets every day?’
It’s hard to gauge. The best thing I did was speaking
to my manager. I told him about the anxiety I was experiencing and the specific
aspects of the role that worried me. If they have a great culture they should respond
with empathy, support and understanding. If they do not - you have your answer.
It also really helps with anxiety. Suddenly you are
not suffering in silence - instead,
your employer knows how you feel and will support you. It can be hard making
that first move, you might think ‘I sounded really confident in the interview.’ In reality we all put
our best foot forward in interviews and experiencing anxiety when starting a
new role (ESPECIALLY a really demanding one) is completely normal. You are
simply telling your manager what you are experiencing and what support you may
need. Managers help with
this stuff ALL the time, so you are not doing anything out of the ordinary.
They will actually appreciate it, they would rather be given the opportunity to
address the issue.
That’s what happened in my experience. My employer, however,
despite making promises and being warm and empathetic, did not deliver on the
supports. So, knowing that I had done what I could to correct the situation, I
resigned. Was it sad leaving people that I got on with so well? Sure, but nice
people just can’t compensate for my serious anxiety and poor health - so in the
end - I mostly felt relieved.
Overall, it’s so important to put your health first. If that means you need to resign at some point,
then that’s okay. Even though it feels like an office as good as this will NEVER
come along again, it’s not true – there are always new opportunities.
I would also recommend talking to a psychologist or counsellor
if you don’t already have one. Remember they are there for any kind of dilemma
or issue. It could just be one session but might really help clarify things for
you and help you sort out a plan of action!
Just a side note – work can be a really stressful place so
it may not be that unusual that your anxiety is triggered in work environments.
That’s why we all want to retire already! Lol.
Hope this helps :)