Hello Grandy :)
Thank you for replying to my post. I can tell it wasn't easy for you & totally understand, so I'm even more touched by your response. Your kind offer of talking with me in here comes at a price, I know.
Often I don't want to think about this aspect of life at all, ever again, so I get it why you didn't respond to my primary post. Sometimes I can't say anything as the words choke in my heart; perhaps you know what I mean.
I'm not clear as to why you felt undeserving to write to me though - we are peers, dear lady, equally inhabiting the same area of society, enduring the same agonies - please always feel free to say whatever you wish to me and I will listen because who you are is valuable & precious... I know about the shame & the fear & the pain so with me these things are not an issue because we're in the same boat :). It is absolute truth that we are not too much, not too little, we are beautiful and we are worth fighting for. Feel free to talk to me just as you are :).
Today's been rough partly due to my talking about things in here. I think it wisest that friendly interaction in such a public forum is the best way to go :). With chats if needed for the rough days. How about we just see how it goes? I'm not looking for counsel or anything, just companionship with someone of my own "kind", if that makes sense :). As needed we can touch on the rough stuff if it's helpful for us, otherwise I prefer that all this horror is stored in its box, with the lid firmly closed, until the lids' forced off again for a time.
I wish you all the very best. I am very sad that your son was taken for adoption & all that's happened since. Your tender heart is clear from your posts so I'm thinking that maybe your experiences have refined your values about what really matters & caring deeply about others in here in their troubled times is something I admire & applaud you for. Expressing the love we are denied giving to our children can be given in other ways - it's not the same yet somehow it helps. It seems that we are the only mums like us in here, at least openly. I feel like a target. Anyway, it's good to know you're here & I hope to earn your trust so that if you ever need to touch base for encouragement & someone to cry with you (at the drop of a heart), I'm here. I'll pop in often to say g'day but not always talk about the rough stuff - it's too hard.
Be good to you dear lady.
With much affection already for you.