Hi Tough it out,
Thanks for sharing your story with us and Welcome to the community here at Beyond Blue.
I'm really sorry you had to go through such a terrible situation. It must have broken your heart considering you were on your way to the UK to propose to her.
Unfortunately life can throw some muck at us, the thing is to get up, dust ourselves off and move on. I know that is not always easy to do!
I was recently hospitalised because I thought that suicide was my best option for beating my blues! I know that is not true, but at times it certainly feels that way.
So how do I keep going? I try to think of something nice I can do each day to make my day more enjoyable. Even when I don't feel like doing something, I try to push myself to do it anyway. Quite often I then surprise myself and find out I am actually enjoying the outing/visit/movie or what ever.
At the end of each day I try to think of things to be thankful for. I try not to dwell on the negative thoughts. I acknowledge them, accept they are there then try to turn them into something more positive.
Try and think of something that you do like about yourself and congratulate your self for that feature or attribute.
I'm not sure how things work as a FIFO worker, but are there opportunities at the end of a working day to catch up with others around you? Even just having a brief chat with someone might help make the day feel better.
Do you have some hobbies or interests you could regenerate and get involved in again?
When you are at home, could you invite some mates over?
Are people really judging you or are you judging yourself? I know I am guilty of the latter and realise that I put myself down, therefore limiting my capacity to achieve much of anything.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life! Hold your head up high, step out into the new day and make the most of it. That is what I am going to try to do today!
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools