I am wondering how you have been feeling the last few days?
I want you to know that you are never alone, and all the thoughts and feelings that you are having, that cause you to feel stuck and sad and unmotivated - you are not the only one experiencing this.
Today i woke up with this sense of dread, but also groundhog day type thing. Feeling stuck, unmotivated but edgy, knowing I'm itching to break through this. Can you relate to that?
First thing i wanted to do, and in fact did, while i had coffee on the stove, was to cry. I wanted to curl up in a ball, but one of the dogs got into the chookpen, so i was forced to get outside and sort that out. Which helped me, because since that got me outside, I've done a few tasks, and although i still pretty much feel like rubbish, i have managed to pull some weeds, wash the dishes, wash and hang a load of laundry and i even sorted out a drawer full of fabric scraps and made my dogs 4 new toys on the sewing machine.
And now writing this has made me feel better because i can see i have done some of the tasks, which is ok, because I'm firing on some of the cylinders. I felt i had done nothing today, so thank you.
I am sharing this in the hope that you feel a friend is close by, listening and understanding how hard it can be.
I want to encourage you to acknowledge the small victories. Even when they feel like nothing, they are something. And they are steps to better moments and better days (and this is all a reminder to myself as well as to you).