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I totally understand what you are going through it’s exhausting….
I also suffered anxiety with my health I’d go to the doctor and have something checked be told by a gp everything was fine but I’d still obsess over it and have questions of what if they missed something…. It was a never ending spiral ……. my anxiety was heightened…..
It came to a point in my life that my anxiety was very high! I couldn’t function I was always stuck in my head, constantly checking things, seeking reassurance, questioning every thought, I was having panic attacks, couldn’t sleep properly or eat properly in the mornings my anxiety was so severe it was horrible……… I’d have horrible intrusive repetitive thoughts that really scared me………I thought I was going crazy…… with all of the negative repeating thoughts and horrible dark intrusive thoughts….
I went to my gp and explained what I was experiencing my gp told me I had anxiety my gp put me on a antidepressant to help me to manage my anxiety, I also saw a clinical psychologist and psychiatrist my psychiatrist diagnosed me with obsessive compulsive disorder it’s a anxiety disorder…….. this then led me to a clinic that specialised in OCD……. This is we’re I learned to master my OCD………. I learned OCD is a vicious cycle……. But with the correct help you can learn to break free of its grips! The therapy I did was meta cognitive therapy…. This therapy changed my life…… I learned what my cycle was and how to disengage from it…… I learned all of the things that kept me in the cycle and no longer do them….. I’m now free…… You too can learn to break free of the cycle you are in with the correct help…..
Id highly recommend you see a clinical psychologist a normal psychologist can’t diagnose a clinical psychologist can……
The things that kept me in my cycle were…… re assurance seeking, analysing thoughts, questioning thoughts, checking things……. I learned reassurance seeking was a compulsion of mine to try to relieve my anxiety and I’d google symptoms a lot as a compulsion….. I no longer do any of the above things … yes my anxiety would be there from not doing these things but it would come down and disappear…
Meditation is great..,
ive been recovered from OCD 4 years going strong..
ive written two threads… have a read if your interested
from some one who had OCD and recovered
and effective treatment for OCD Metacognitive Therapy
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