Hello dear Willy,
Your story reminds me of my youngest son....He had a dream of working with electronic/electrical ever since he was a small boy....He didn’t like high school, his grades were low and he was totally bored with all the subjects at school...He also compared his grades to his peers and well..let’s just say he was well below their high grades....
It mattered very much to him, that his grades were low...and to his dad as well...but to me I knew that he was doing his best and that’s all that really counts....I told him that I was proud of him..because I knew what his best was...
He would spend hours of the day reading electronic books...He got lost in those books...
Full forward a bit..he started jigging school..never completed year 10 because he left school....He done the work for dole program in horticulture for a while, until he applied for a junior job in electronics...but he wasn’t a junior anymore....While he was at the interview and those electronic questions came up..he breezed passed them and was hired on the spot...He accepted juniors pay...He didn’t care about the money, he was just so happy that he was working his dream...
He stayed in that job ever since and now he is the factory supervisor...After nearly 20 years he still loves his job...
I told you this because, even though my son wasn’t very good at the school subjects...he is living his dreams...
If the schools subjects were about engineering I could imagine that you would probably top the class in your grades...because it’s what your interested in....It doesn’t matter that your friends are getting higher marks then you..What matters is that you know what you want to do after leaving school...and I hope that you will never give up on your dreams and you will you chase it with all your heart..
There is always taffe...and apprentices that you could learn about engineering and get your certification through...
Please don’t be to hard on yourself dear Willy...right now you are doing the best the can...and that is honestly the best you can do.....Just keep your dream alive, chase it and you will succeed in your chosen field, because it’s what your passionate about...it’s what you want....and I know that you can do it...believe in yourself....Comparing yourself to others is not really good..their are always people that are better at different things then other people..Doing your best is the best that you can do..
My kindest thoughts dear Willy..
Grandy..