Lovely to see you here. I'll have to check out your recommendations 😊
Croix, I've just been doing a lot of thinking. Sometimes I feel as though I'm speaking the wrong "language" (for me at least). I know that our dominant language uses words but sometimes I find words feel so unnatural to me. I do like words but it just feels very effortful for me, you know.
Conan Gray recently said that to him, song writing/music is like "breathing." When I heard that, I instantly thought "me too!" Music has always been the "language" that I've always instinctively understood best.
When I hear a song or piece, I see images in my head. Sometimes they're memories and sometimes it's my imagination. But above all, it's a feeling.
Anyway, I haven't really felt like myself lately (and I'm not really going to get into it) but I think that I need to spend more time in my "music cave." Getting back to basics (so to speak), which naturally entails music for me.
I don't come from a very outdoors-y family. So it has always somewhat baffled me when people sometimes lament about kids missing out on "a real childhood" of climbing trees, roaming streets freely, etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm not knocking those things at all and I can appreciate that those activities are very important to some people (and children).
But I did none of those things when I was a child, and I never felt like I missed out. I come from a background that valued the arts immensely so we were more likely to visit a museum or gallery than to climb a tree haha. Specifically, my mum loved art galleries and my dad loved music. Car rides usually meant a lot of classical music was played although dad did also like some more contemporary music too. He loved Beethoven (especially some of the angrier sounding ones).
Now I'm rambling...is it weird to say I "miss" music even though I spend quite a substantial amount of my time in what you call "music clouds?"
Anyway, I might be taking a break from BB to get back into music more. Like composing...there will be no lyrics...why force myself to do something that doesn't come naturally to me (?) Just notes...