I'm so sorry to all those that are commenting and then those who are replying, who I can see have been able to do so, but I am having trouble to respond to you, because my pc won't let me do this.

I have gone through all my anti-viruses programs, shut down my pc, all to no avail, I am using Firefox on windows 7 which won't let me reply, and then tried chrome but it still comes up with 'system error'.

Sorry but I will try and get it fixed, I have informed BB as to my trouble, so just wondering if others are using Firefox. Geoff.

Hi Geoff

I use Firefox and have not had any problems getting on to the BB site.  I find it slow but whether that is due to Firefox or BB I have no idea.  

Take care

White Rose

Call me an IT dinosaur cause will i be embarrassed to actually ask, what is Firefox?   I thought it was a Clint Eastwood movie.

Be that as it may, I do hope you can get things sorted out soon Geoff.

Hi Geoff

I had the same problem yesterday, couldn't get into anyone's posts to reply. Kept coming up saying system error.

But I'm glad to be back on now.

Hope you're doing okay Geoff

Jo

dear Jo, anything seemed to OK but then I had a problem with typing a post and subsequently losing it, as I was half way through it.

Thanks I'm good but have just been told that I have to vacate my property because the owner's daughter wants to move in, so I have to start packing, but also finding a new property, so b****************er it.

I really hope that you are getting on pretty well, but I know the answer to this already. L Geoff. x

Geoff,

I hope you find another place soon, How much time do you have before you need to move out?

I guess you're right with how I am at the moment - one minute okay the next not so okay. I am trying but it's a slow slow process. And it's the down days that i don't know if i can get through them. I guess I do because I'm still here - don't know what pulls me back up.

Geoff, do you ever have days where you feel lost, scared, lonely.  Even though i have a husband and kids I still feel all these. And sometimes it scares me because i feel like not living, and i know i would't do anything but there's this thought at the back of my head that keeps popping up and lately it's more frequent.

Geoff, how do I let go of the past and start, just start a little bit of moving forward. Sometimes i feel like i have started to improve and bang something else happens and pushes me back down.

Hope you can reply back

Jo

dear Jo, thanks I have until the end of september but can move out before hand if I find something else.

Yes I do have days where I feel lonely, scared well not so much these days, and being lost, well every now and then, and probably now that I have to move, pack up and find another house, where the rent will have increased, but more so a place that will accept Moo-Moo.

How do I let go of the past, well I came to the decision that the past which was nowhere as bad as you, was that there was never any way that all of those problems could ever be solved, and what would I achieve by solving them, probably more heartache more tears, continue my drinking that would certainly put me in a box, and still may do, but I will take that as it comes, but there would be many more questions to answer even though I solved problem 1, because another can of worms would open up from this, and so on, and then I had to realise how many problems there were that I had to solve, and then all the extra cans of worms that would be opened, so the list was massive, so that's why I had to seal them all in a box to never be seen again.

Now I have forgotten all about them, and even by talking about them by replying to people doesn't take me back to those miserable days, so now I can freely mention what has happened to me, without going back into depression.

I'm happy to answer any more questions and the more you ask the more I will remember. L Geoff. x