Firstly, welcome to the forums we are so glad that you found your way to this supportive and welcoming community. We hope that you find ideas, options and support from the shared experiences and knowledge of all our members.
We want to thank you for having the strength and bravery to share your story and allow our community to help you on your journey. We can hear that you have a lot of judgement and stress in your life, and this is not helped by feeling trapped with family that don’t understand or accept who you are. We can see that this is having a significant impact on your mental health and we want you to know that Beyond Blue are there for you if you need to talk anytime.
Beyond Blue support service 24/7, either via phone 1300 22 4636 or web chat: http://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/get-immediate-support
As you have stated that your family constantly use ‘homophobic slurs’ and that this is a huge component of how you are currently feeling, we would also like to recommend contacting QLife. QLife is a free and anonymous service run by LGBTIQ+ peers for those wanting to talk about a range of issues including sexuality, identity, gender, bodies, feelings, or relationships. They operate between 3pm and midnight each day and can be called on or chat via https://qlife.org.au/resources/chat
One further resource for you to look at while deciding if it is possible to move out of home, is Services Australia. They have guides and links to government approved services regarding housing, finances, and employment. We would highly recommend seeing what services, assistance and support is available specific to your situation and location, while you are processing your decision. You can access this service via their website, https://www.servicesaustralia.gov.au/
If at any point that feeling of ‘suicide feels like the only way out’ becomes overwhelming or you do not feel safe, we urge you to contact emergency services on 000.
We hope that you find the support and direction that you are seeking on the forums. This is a safe space to share and express your own feelings, struggles and experiences without judgement. Once again, we are so glad you have joined the forums and we hope that you feel welcomed into the community.