Hello Hahn1, thanks for your comment and yes, what you have said reminds me of the days when I was struggling, with all the points you have made, especially staring into oblivion with only small insignificant thoughts that mean nothing, but actually they do, because we're lost and can't find the answers to these clueless thoughts.
If anybody asks us what we're thinking off, the answer is 'I don't know, nothing', and we do act on impulse which can cause chaos because this illness makes us do this and it's not something we would normally do.
Sometimes we feel comfortable thinking about nothing but after a while, we become confused, we want solutions or answers to what has been happening and need to understand why we are forced into this situation, and thinking alone is not the best option to unravel this.
Write down how you are feeling in point form, this way it's much easier for your doctor to understand what you are struggling with, if it's an essay, then the doctor may get lost, but point form, this won't happen.
Reach out for some help.