Hey there, I understand your concern I’ve felt like this for a long time too. For ages I wondered if there was something wrong with me or not. But after a lot of thinking and talking to friends I think I understand it a little better now, of course I’m no professional but I’ve narrowed it down to this concept.
we as humans are a very social species, we feel the need to connect with others and sometimes some of us feel like we don’t connect in the right way or that there is no way for us to connect. We can feel like there is no way to be seen of feel part of the group so we resort to picking up on mannerisms of others around us to help us better fit in with the herd.
Now there is nothing wrong with wanting to fit in it’s a great idea to have a support system that you trust and love. The problem like you have identified is when you feel like you don’t have your own personality.
i personally when I feel like this have begun to do small meditation moments with myself. I make sure I’m focused and sitting down somewhere and I try to think of at least three things that I love. For example, I love gardens, I love long coats, I love the colour green.
I focus on the things that I love and how they are parts of what make me me because I love them.
you could even go a step further and say things you do and how they show your personality too. (After all actions are louder than words) . For example, you took the time to reach out to people on here because you care about being the best version of yourself and are willing to seek help to achieve that version of yourself. That shows that you are open minded and willing to work with and listen to others. (A very great quality to have too I gotta say👍)
I hope at least some of this helped you a little. you’ve got this, just remember that you are not alone and that you coming here is the start of you getting to the best version of yourself. Take care xx