Hey mitch, if you're not feeling good today, then yeah best put aside the assessment centre from your mind for now. That's a good way to take care of yourself.
Sounds like you're having a rough day. Comparisons with other people is always going to drain you because everyone else's life always looks better. You've probably heard of confirmation bias - well, I think it happens to a lot of people struggling with negative self image. We think we're worse, and so that's all we see.
Did you know that in the 2011 census 24% of households were single? And what about those in unhappy relationships? We don't see that.
And how about the poor people stuck doing manual jobs, wishing they could get a uni education? Sure, they have a job, money, maybe a partner and friends to have a beer with. but they want more.
Point is comparisons will always drag you down. Think about what you're doing:
- you're learning new skills at uni (tbh the actual content is often pretty useless, but the skills are useful)
- you're keeping physically healthy
- you're in touch with your emotions
- you're actively trying to build a better life for yourself
- you're not compromising on your values and actually working them out too
I think if you were to ask any of your friends whether this is something they'd want, they'd probably say yes.
Instead, they might be more like me. on the full time work train towards a mid-life crisis. Choo choo!
I think you know you're on the right path. You've said so yourself a few times. Just gotta hang tight some days and bunker down.