Dear Nell hi ☺ and everyone 🖐
Dah what a shame he insisted on going when you needed to talk to the psych one on one.
Poor thing feeling as you do, it's very hard trying to hold up when there's such weight pulling you down.
Btw lovey please never feel bad about " having a rant" in your words ☺ that's exactly what your thread and here's for.
I imagine this has been spoken about before but have you tried writing your feelings out Nell, doesnt have to be here but it can give a sense of release which you certainly need by the sounds.
Something else I imagine could be very difficult but certainly worth the effort and a good feeling after is to try even if just a short walk in the sunshine out of the house, sun has a great deal of healing and is proven to help along with exercise with depression.
Feel for you having nightmares. When you wake try to take some deep breaths and tell yourself you're here in the now and safe.
My thoughts if you're happy with this psych best to stick with him. Might give your psych some good insight to your home life listening to hubby. Does hubby listen to you? Up to you if you want to reply to that.
Nells if you can at times to give your mind some freshness and temporary reprieve from pain if there's something in your life you've enjoyed like being at the beach, looking at the stars being in the water if you cast your mind to somewhere and focus on the light warmth of sun feeling on your skin and ignore for that time any negatives. We need a break from darkness all the time.
Nells you've survived this long hun under extreme circumstances. It doesnt feel as though you can I know but please keep going and try very hard to get ending out of your mind because the more you consider that a depressed mind will be more likely to give up.
Believe in yourself that you really do have in you what it takes to keep moving forward towards a better life. You're needed Nell and you deserve peace.
Vent anytime ⚘