lovely thx Monkey, I agree with what you're saying
Low self esteem I've recently realised it's one of depressions tendrils, a stronger one
Mine was rock bottom starting at about 9yrs, beautiful parents, was people, so called friends pffttt but to be fair they too were young.
Pretty sure if not BP all life something else pulling me down, I remember same deep depression at times in very young yrs but fortunately as a kid we have easy distraction so they didn't last long.
Yeah I"ll never understand why people wanna put others down, heard it's their insecurities but says a lot about them, we have em and don't feel the need to put others down. Belittle.
I worked amongst majority blokes cutting T.tree in swamp,God eye opener to OZ bush coming from Sydney, city all life till then, YIKES, think all the insects & helicopter size flyers smelt new blood, we'd be sitting in a circle, few of us and they'd beeline for me. Much pain there, daily untold bully jumper ants & the Red ones the whoppers, multiple bee stings once, spider bite, nearly got crushed by falling tree & I live to tell the tale lol. Met my sweetheart there so good outta hard.
Good you got out, only a couple of nursing jobs outta a few the staff were B's so I moved on, actually second one I stayed & worked out ok, sadly where ever we go there's that small minority of mongrels. What's the point as you say in being unhappy aye.
Truth, when we can look back & say we got through roughies, we should pat ourselves on the back aye. The mind in downs pulls up every friggen hurt. Happy to say starting to say yeah/nah, just the depression trying to pull me down (working so far) stoked. Dismissing it
:) our pool, pretty average aye at least we're releasing stress which needs an out, it compounds, pulls us down. IT's maybe a wired energy that if it's not used (adrenalin) for it's purpose if it stays inside, not healthy.
Self esteem I'm pretty sure to build means liking ourselves, if we do then we get a shield for confidence.
Do you like yourself now?
Nice chatting with you magic.... magic :) thx for calling. Sorry I didn't give you some choccy cake lol, anything sweet doesn't last here long.