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Topic: Surviving: Being in a better place

  1. demonblaster
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    24 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach
    :) You two lovelies, thanks for calling in, lovely to see yaz xx
    Awesome soul hugs to yous both too. Love hugs, not the oh God let's not touch though type lol

    Haha bit feisty yeah Starts lol, oh yeah :D. Yeah I AM gunna beat this.

    Ohhh Peps I got an ooops email cause was throwing in if you remember us mucking around with your name, the bach bit and i added an i in there and it wouldn't go through, but you know I was only playing aye hun, felt I had to tell ya :) Care too much, wasn't meant to be hurtful, we joked about it while back.

    Yeah thought I remembered you saying you were ok with virtual affection, wow good soul hug hun thanks :)

    Thanks sweet people, Biggly care

    RockStar: Thinking thinking thinking about you lady. Worried.
    I'm here and with you virtually dear friend.
    Hate you being unwell xx
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  2. chrissy1
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    24 October 2017 in reply to chrissy1

    Hi everyone

    thanks again for connecting!

    im abit curious wanting to know do most of u work? Cause I don't and haven't for many years, because of my severe depression,not that I didn't . I couldn't and just wondering how many are like me.

    i would love to hear from u.

    chrissy1 Hugs! To all!

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  3. Mathy
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    24 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    G’day DB, I’ve found your thread - dropping in to say Hi!

    No news on the Sparrow matrimony - it rained today, not helpful.

    Will spend some time having a read and getting up to speed , best cheers M :)

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    24 October 2017 in reply to Mathy

    Hi DB,

    Love the soul hugs! Thank you :)

    Lol. All good, don’t worry about it. I don’t mind at all. You have a good sense of humour and fun- all is well so please don’t stress over it ;) Big smile from me.

    Waves to Chrissy and Mathy- looks like you’re making lots of friends, DB, which is great.

    Pepper xoxo

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    25 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    yes DB you are going to beat this. damn right you are and your are winning because even when you fail you get back up again. that is the real success not numbers but the strength within
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    25 October 2017 in reply to chrissy1

    Hi chrissy. im glad you got your name changed. i couldnt work for a little while but i found that i need an escape from my complciated and toxic situation that im in. currently im an aged carer but have a secondary job as a farmhand and also studying online atm.

    please dont feel bad that i do these things though, who knows how long ill be able to keep it up

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    25 October 2017 in reply to chrissy1
    Hey Chrissy good on you sorting the name stuff, saw your posts and replies how to do it, you got the job done (Y) :)

    No I haven't worked for a few yrs was carer for late partner. Did work mostly up till then.
    More time can be good but dangerous for a depressed mind but then it also can be good to take it on. Need to be able to think it all through to tackle it.

    How are you doing?
    Good to see you btw :)

    Welcome Mathy :D nice to see you, thanks that you wanna get up to speed, nice (Y)
    Bloody loven Sparrow matrimony, can't get enough of it lol. Is she still tarting. Playing hard to get aye, she got da moves lol
    You travellin ok?

    Hey beautiful Peps: Always a pleasure and yeah how good are the soul hugs aye, had a beauty other eve with someone I'm keen on, I instrumented it all :D :D damned good too it was, but dunno think he's keen but maybe into someone else BUGGA, time will tell, but oooh la la good soul job
    Figured you got me with humor but needed to tell ya anyway, loyalty thing. MWah you rock hun. Know it.
    Absolutely adore listening to you comforting dear wee Starts, I feel soothed reading it. You're such a loving gentle caring soul. Rate you highly darl ((( Soul )))

    Hey Starts darling :) Thanks for unwavering care and support sweet thing, and same goes for you, you keep getting back up and pushing on cause we have strength and we're using it.
    You too as most of us I reckon can beat our demons.
    Our inbuilt sense of survival is our strength. It's strong too

    Thx all for dropping in, sorry no chocolate, ate it all

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    25 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    Rock-Starwolf:

    Was looking back through our posts here for a while this morning as I do sometimes. Love & so appreciate our time

    You're doing it hard aren't you atm ((( deep soul hugs )))

    Missing you :'( ... so worried about you good lady

    Peace friend xx
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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    Thoughts and deep care Rock-Starwolf xx
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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    Your souls hugs are the best. Thanks for making me smile :)

    I’m glad you took the initiative to get to know this special someone that you’re interested in. Yes, time will indeed tell...in the mean time, just enjoy getting to know each other. Wishing you both all the very best.

    Aw thanks, likewise, I think very highly of you too.

    Soul hugs,

    Pepper xoxo

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    26 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Ahhh Peps, I was feeling a bit low today for a bit but got through and was thinking I'd love you to be close to comfort me and here you are, thankyou sweetheart, like I said hearing you comfort Wings really makes me feel safe too. You're a very caring loving chooky, care deeply about you too ((( xxx ))) awesome hugs,

    bugga not looking like there's interest from the fella, damnnnnn, put myself out there did a bit of hand touching to which he responded later too but nah, interest in someone else on net. Oh well, it is rejection but can't have it all, maybe someone else is there for me. Frig I want someone. sooo much love and need.

    Arghhhh oh well sh....it appens aye. I think there's interest but he's being loyal, good on him. Bumma tho. Bit sloshed atm so cruisy kinda, bloody kill for a durry tho. Dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

    Thankyou sweet thing, how are you today girl, you can say here, I'm here for you too darl, not a one sided thing, hate that, it's about give and take I reckon. xxxxx You rock biggly girl
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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    I'm so worried and sad about you Rock-Star (wolf) tear up at times. Hate that you're struggling and know you are.
    It does sound serious by the stuff you've said.

    Please please be ok Star, selfishly I know but I need you and so do so many others here. You make such a difference.

    So grateful for you ((( holding hands ))) xx
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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    hey DB

    i want to send some hugs to you because i can. youve been suporting me and i want to do that in return and although its proabaly not the best i will sit here and hold your hand or hug you till your ready to let go yourself.

    i dont care what state im in, i will always give hugs becasue i know what its like to be alone so sending soul hugs and a hand or both to hold

    xoxoxox

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    26 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    Thx sweet, need some for part of these days, few moments happening which is different, usually once I'm out I'm out, things are changing, for the better I hope, hard moments tearing up thinking then moving on furthur. We'll see. Changes happening.

    No go with fella by looks. Phoo, just gotta pick up again aye. We'll see think some interest but complicated kind of but doesn't make ya feel shit hot. Getting stronger bittly

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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    You're not replying cause you can't RockStar I reckon

    If I miss times here, know you're in my thoughts & I'll be back later always

    Care lady xx

    You're not alone just not face on

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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Well db take as many hugs as you need ❤❤❤

    Sorry about the fella hopefully someone else comes along for you ❤

    Hopefully these changes are good ❤❤❤

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  17. Mathy
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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey DB,

    You really sad about Starwolf. I’ve read your thread and I feel a bit sad too, hope the ‘Wolf is ok.

    I gave up the durries after 40 years in June this year, so I can relate to that wail aye!

    You’ve been verra kind to me, I want to send you a hug, hope tomorrow is a happy day for ya, cheers M :)

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    26 October 2017 in reply to Mathy

    Thankyou so much Mathy that's really moving. Everything you said.

    Yeah I really do care about her she's been by my side from the beginning of this thread, so wise, caring, how she supports others and speaks, kind, she's been a rock. What a survivor, she's an inspiration. We've had good conversations

    I'm here for you Rock-Starwolf, at this stage this is all I can do for you. Just be here.
    You know how much I care. You're in my thoughts so often

    Crying this morning can't seem to stop, must need to come out. Few emotions bouncing around

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    26 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello special lady ❤❤ im sure i wrote here at some add hour through the night. Musnt have pressed post...

    im sorry about the fella hopefully someone else comes along for you ❤

    Hopefully these changes are good too

    Special hugs to you ❤❤

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    27 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    Thx sweety girl (( deep soul ))

    Not so good today seems to be one of those bloody days. There's a lot going on atm and yeah the fella that's not helping self esteem and rejection status but it'll pass, thought there was some interest but looking like maybe not.
    Going back home soon, been so good having a lot of company daily and really good times. Neat seeing good brother and sil and know a few people here from previous stays so been good. Didn't see other friends this trip may be back soonish.

    Got lot of friends where and around I live and love but feeling pretty stuffin average atm darl

    I"ll be ok, this is mild compared to what BP dishes out. I'm stronger than this but clearly need to let it out.

    Thx hun just feeling a bit overwhelmed and worried bout RockStar too

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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey db

    I sorry to hesr your not doing so well. It might be a slump but either way we are here for you.

    I glad youve been having a good time. You need the good things in life too ❤❤

    Let it out db. Just let it out. Let the tears flow. The the words come out. Im hearing you and listening to whatever you want to say ❤❤❤

    Hugs ❤❤ heading for a sleep now

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    27 October 2017 in reply to startingnew
    Hope you get a good sleep, makes the world of dif with mental health.

    thanks darl, you are appreciated too xx

    Been out amongst it with SIL been good, mental health day off again in a tic
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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    i cant sleep db, too scared to tbh.

    mental health is often a cycle isnt it and comes unexpectedly. your strong enough though, i believe in you

    hugs xoxox

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    Get it but sleeps vital esp when we're down it carries stress, think it's adrenalin when we're tired to try & give us a boost and if it's not used is dangerous. Needs an outlet.

    Yeah this'll pass. Pretty average but ok, can laugh too
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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    There seems to be a lot happening in your corner.

    It must have been very disappointing that things didn’t work out with this guy. I think rejection almost always hurts. I feel that even the most resilient amongst us have moments of fragility and pain...part of being human.

    Yes, you do have a lot of love to offer- a compassionate and passionate soul. Hopefully your “someone” is out there...

    I know you’re extremely worried about Starwolf. You care deeply for her and have shared much of your life with her. Your words to her are very moving...she has walked with you during many important milestones and difficult times in your life. That is priceless...your friendship.

    Sending love and more soul hugs,

    Pepper xoxo

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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    Sorry, I forgot to say thank you for your message of reciprocity and mutual support. It speaks volumes about you as you still want to support me even though you have your own pain. You’re a beautiful and generous person.

    I’m managing even though I have been struggling to find the words when it comes to talking about me. To self preserve, I’ve spent more time alone and less time with friends, etc in the offline realm. Retreated into a cone of silence or to an extent anyway.

    Sending comfort and gratitude,

    Pepper xoxo

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    27 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach

    Depression does that sweetheart it wants us to feel like shit and be alone, any way it can pull us down, how can this be part of us we don't wanna feel this way so why, It's a separate identity, talking with Starwolf and I'd started seeing it as separate helps not go with it.

    It's too easy to go down aye.

    Do you think you can beat this? cause you can, it's our thoughts we respond to

    I know what you mean about talking, suicidal teens I couldn't, didn't know how to explain, now you can't shut me up but better this way, it's an out. People that care can get an idea, usually talk when I'm between cycles of how hard it is. It is hard when you're so low to express verbally anyway, I cry a lot

    You can let go here Peps you know that aye, you've got a lot of love you give and deserve it, I'm feeling very deeply towards you, thanks so much for your support friendship and comfort,the more I hear you the more I care. You're a beautiful person too with so much rot going on and you too support others, you're a real darl x

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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey DB,

    Sorry to hear your thoughts about the guy, often we become collateral damage in other people’s lives.

    You are indeed a very worthy person, with much to give - gr8 sense of humour. And very compassionate as well. You give smiles to others, yes ?

    Big hugs to you, take care, cheers M :)
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    27 October 2017 in reply to Mathy

    Thanks Mathy yeah not a major with bloke thought maybe but nah interest, he didn't lead me on or anything. Think it's biggly need, empty void, lot of love like us all want that again

    Yeah make people happy, life's better & easier when people are happy aye

    Peps darl post hasn't landed yet but did reply yesday xx

    Rock STAR or the wolf as Mathy said (Y) One of my earliest thoughts on waking. You.
    I've seen thumbs up here n there, trouble
    with not knowing who's doing it, hoping it's you
    Missing you like you wouldn't believe
    Wish I knew where you're at
    Anyway not going anywhere

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    27 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    My special lady ❤ i want to be here just as much as you are for me. And before you say 'tou dont have to' i know i dont HAVE to but i WANT to. Despite not having too much to say please know that i care very much for you. Helping others and that includes you helps me in a way. Takes away from my own feelings and thoughts and puts them to good use. As you said its not about finding answers right now its about surviving so im surviving and your one of those survivors so ill read through here and see where i can learn-hope you dont mind-

    I know your missing rockstar but im sure she will pop in when she can. She could be working some magic on her self or possibly some newbies here and there to escape her own issues too. Shes very clever and she knows her stuff.

    Soul hugs. Feel the love DB many care for you here not just me. As an extra special token as i dont do it for many i will send one of my butterflies to come and sit with you and i can watch over you from that way too and with that i hope you see some butterflies flying around.

    Big soul hugs, gebtly holding your hand as you get through your difficult phase too ❤❤❤

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