Sorry for the delay- my internet has been a bit dodgy this weekend so I have been unable to respond.
With th regards to my grandad, I don't think there's any hope for him quitting alcohol. Sometimes, even when he is so clearly drunk, when my mum questions him about whether he's had anything to drink or not, he flat out denies it. It's hard to tell if he's lying to her, himself or both.
Computer science and graphic design are muted optionals for next school year. My school is weird in the fact that, the fourth term of the calendar year is the first tee of the school year. This is intended to give year twelves an extra term to learn their course's contents before exams. So next term I am starting computer science and graphic design. Since I am only in year ten, maths, science, English, humanities (economics, law, geography, history), sport and biblical studies are still compulsory.
This fear of the unknown is so frustrating some times. No matter what I do, I always evaluate the pros, cons, risks, etc. If something is eve slightly risky, I won't do it. I can't explain it, but I am so paranoid that things will go wrong. For example, even for this forum, I made a new email address that I don't use, just so no one can find the emails on my phone etc. Even in every day life, I find myself not doing things because I am afraid of the consequences.
Thanks again ain for your support,