Hello Gabriellek,
A very warm welcome to the forums..
I am very deeply sorry to hear about your previous baby...No words would ever convey the sadness of what your ex done...
Loneliness is a horrible to thing to feel...I can understand how overwhelming loneliness can be....I live alone..I was in an abusive relationship for 38 years..until my husband passed away from cancer, and I’m left on my own..I have children who live nearly 8 hours drive from mine..and visits have been no existent this year..other years I see my youngest son 1 or 2 times...
You can talk here Gabrielle, we are hear listening to you, anytime you feel to talk is great...you’re listened to and cared for here very much...You are not alone lovely Gabrielle....
My kind and caring thoughts..
Grandy..