We are so sorry to hear that you're struggling with so many physical and mental health symptoms after such a traumatic experience. It sounds like it would feel very overwhelming and difficult to manage at times. What helps on the really tough days?
Please know that there is no need to apologise for your post, this is a safe non-judgemental space to talk things through. Our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need. However, if you think it could be helpful, we would also encourage you to speak with the Blue Knot Helpline, as they are specalised trauma counsellors that may be about to offer additional support or referrals. There contact number is 1300 657 380 (Monday - Sunday between 9am - 5pm AEST).
Keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.