Just reading back and wondering how to say things l'd like out of my head , and of also just what has been the sense of it all and life this past 6yrs.
And so not only thanks to all but also to makin a change, bc there's a lot of sense and beautiful attitude in things he has said, so thanks again for that my friend.
l do want happiness for her , with or without us, l'd love happiness for her , and a peace , and an end to everything she's been through. And l'd love of course peace and happiness for myself too with or without us should it go that way.
lately so much of this last 6yrs has been flashing around for me. And as makin has said , l too should be soooooo grateful and thankful for the thing's and time's l've had during it all , if nothing else was to come of it , l could well at least just be so thankful for the incredible times l've been blessed with that many unfortunately would only dream of , through it all. l suppose that's one way to look at it all , even with things turning out in the way that they have. 6yrs ago l for one even myself could've only dreamed of ever having some of these times again.
Do things happen for the best , l wonder , l'd say some of it has , but then l'd also say it was a gift and that l blew it, unfortunately.
l suppose whatever is to come in the future from here , will tell all in just what was and wasn't meant to be and was it all for a reason and lead up to whatever might come from here. When we met , we'd' thought our whole lifes had happened in the way that they had , and her ending up on the other side of the world , for us to meet.
Butttt, doesn't look now as if that was the case , so the next obvious thought is was this 6yrs for some other future reason yet to be revealed. ? And of course no one can know that with anything in life until after the fact , so we see l suppose.
l do feel like though that l was handed on a platter more than l could've ever dreamed of at this stage though , and that maybe that was the future , and now it isn't.