Hi I'm new to the forums,
My ex has broken up with me yesterday. We have dated since I was 17 and now I'm 21 and the relationship is over.
She left me because our relationship has been a little rocky and she found herself attracted to someone else. The break up was respectful and I respect her for breaking it off with me before she "did anything" with him. (I believe her because I still feel that I can trust her). I know there is no way to be back with her.
I understand that some may view this as just a highschool heartache and that the relationship isn't serious.
But from 17-21 we changed together so much. It was those years where I really transitioned from being a kid to an adult. I feel that everything about me and the things I enjoy are linked closely to her, we did everything together.
I neglected spending time with my friends while I was with her and now that she is gone I have no one to talk to about how I feel.
I have deleted her from everything, I have thrown out all the pictures but literally everything in my room I got while I was with her. I look at everything in my room and for some reason my brain can recall all the moments I shared with her with that said item.
I want to move on but I always have an urge to pick up with phone and call her. I cant stop crying.
I'm in university and the subjects are hard and depressing. I'm also doing a shitty unpaid 8.30-5.30 internship two days a week.
I spend my week hating this **** and would have 1 day off to look forward to seeing my only friend, my girlfriend.
Now that she is gone, I don't know how I will cope. What should I do?