Hello smallbean 😊
I think you are very brave coming out to your friends and family, it is especially hard for you knowing that some of them are not totally accepting and inclusive.
I didn't come out until I had left school, I also went to a Christian school and grew up surrounded by conservative religious views. You are braver than I was.
It's hard when you have feelings for someone and they're not reciprocated ... hopefully someone else will come along and distract you from your friend!
I hope by becoming a member here you feel safe and supported and know that you are never alone.