I read your comment, and couldn’t relate to it anymore if I tried. I felt like I had written it, only difference is I am three years older.
Having been in a closet all this time as well, I haven’t been in a long term relationship and didn’t date in my teen years. I also have regrets of time wasted.
However I have come to the realisation that while I may have wasted some of my younger years, I won’t waste another day, and will be making most of my life from today onwards.
One of the obstacles I am finding is I live in the Hunter Valley where there is hardly any support groups or meet any other gay guys, where as the nearest major city near me is Sydney that has allot of sport/social groups.
In terms of any men judging me because I have never been in a relationship or my lack of sexual experience, I would move on, they aren’t really people I would want to spend time with anyway.
Look forward to chatting more,