Good morning Summer; (Shout outs to Marcus and Jay)
I'm sorry if my last post didn't fit your situation. I guess my style on here includes out-of-the-box discussions as a means of encouraging dialog. It can be difficult for first time posters to get into the swing of things; it's my responsibility as a volunteer peer to help people feel comfortable and safe enough to keep talking.
I too didn't realise you were still living together. This isn't ideal as a mindset for moving on and would be difficult facing your grief. It does however make things easier to plan the next phase of your life. Your ex is really gracious with giving you time to organise.
Learning or remembering how to be single takes patience. Reading how you're indecisive about a new place to live may reflect this. It's challenging to take on responsibilities on your own after 10 yrs of sharing accountability. I'm sure though you have what it takes to get there.
I'm wondering if you have a psychologist to talk with. Living in such close quarters with him might tempt you to talk about your feelings and keep you attached. Someone not emotionally connected with you will provide an avenue to vent or discuss ways to support your move and grief.
It's a process Summer; one step at a time. Try to focus on each issue as they come up instead of the big picture. This will help you gently come to terms with your situation while celebrating your achievements as they occur; ultimately you'll gain strength as time passes to face each challenge as they arise.
Talking with your friends about the break-up would give you another support system to rely on. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you need to ok.
Maybe your GP can support your lack of sleep with some light med's to kick start a healthy pattern. It doesn't have to be long term, just a strategy to see you thru this difficult period.
I wish you well my friend..
Be gentle and kind with yourself;