Hi everyone,
I apologise for not having anything particularly helpful to say, but I just have some emotions that I would like to unload here. I hope that’s okay...
I’m extremely grateful & fortunate to have a job in this difficult time, & I don’t take that lightly. I’m very, very thankful...
That said, everyone at work is tired. I’m tired. Our executive staff are tired. Our frontline staff are (even more) tired. And our clients are (understandably) scared, as almost all of them are immunosuppressed.
Management were doing things that they normally don’t do...searching online, making calls & physically going into shops to try to find face masks, hand sanitiser, & gloves for our frontline staff. I am in a strange position of helping to screen & monitor clients; one that I don’t necessarily feel trained or experienced to do.
Work has become a very strange & chaotic place...
I came home on Monday night & almost burst into tears. I sat up till 10pm, wondering if I had missed something in the screening/monitoring process...
I’m not a medical professional. I don’t know what I am doing, & direction at work is unclear because the current situation is unprecedented.
But on the upside, I have had to learn to take things day by day. I have no choice. I think that might be key right now for many of us...?
I sat outside tonight, coffee in hand, & just let the sadness wash over me. Sometimes I think that I just have to feel my own emotions, even the difficult ones...
The cool breeze was comforting, & I noticed the sunset & the red undertones of a huge plant with dark leaves. Gorgeous. Even during stressful & uncertain times, it made me appreciate how there are moments of beauty....
Not sure what I am trying to suggest other than maybe let’s just take it day by day, & if you’re feeling scared or sad, those feelings are valid too.
We are all in this together :)
Kindness and care to all,
Pepper