I found this forum whilst searching for a place to get help. I'm not coping very well with 'living with COVID'. I have multiple underlying health conditions such as obesity, diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease. I can't seem to block out the thoughts that if I get COVID the worst will happen because the people that die or get very sick have the same underlying health conditions as me.
I'm praying each day that the scientists and health professionals will find a cure for COVID but in the meantime I'm just really struggling to cope. Some days I feel there's hope, then that hope gets dissipated when you're told a cure is not suitable for you because of your health conditions. I just feel hopeless and want to cry.
I'm just too scared to leave the house because the high numbers of community cases but even in my own home I'm anxious and scared everyday because my husband still has to go to work in the physical office.
He doesn't understand me and keeps telling me to be positive, don't think of the worst, but it's just so hard to block the risks out. He's a healthy, fit person with no underlying medical conditions, I struggle just to fight any infection let alone COVID.
I was sick with a severe case of stomach virus since boxing day and I'm still recovering from this horrid thing. I know my immune system is poor and I know my health is not in good condition but there's nothing I can do but try and improve my health.
How are other people with underlying medical conditions coping? I've tried taking a walk several times and came back petrified because I had to walk past people not wearing masks and breathing heavily whilst overtaking me.
I've tried meditation but I can't concentrate and just end up crying. I talk to family but they have different circumstances. Such as they don't have underlying medical conditions so don't understand my fear or they do have underlying medical conditions but don't share a house with anyone.
Fortunately my profession, I can work at home but it has been a very difficult battle to get my employer to allow work from home which has been very stressful as the arrangement is reviewed every 3 months and I need to fight so hard to be able to work from home.
For those out there coping, please share what is working for you because I am well and truly drowning and my marital relationship is at breaking point.
Any help or guidance would be deeply appreciated xx