Firstly I want to send big love to everyone here. Seeking support, guidance and facing the monsters of mental illness for yourself and loved ones, takes great bravery. Please allow yourself a sincere acknowledgement of this.
I am sharing today during a space of pain, transition and working through acceptance.
My journey with mental illness started through DNA, continued on through illness and pain, moving to self discovery/healing and has lead me to a place where I now support others in a Mental health support role.
The purpose and pride I feel in my job is something that I hold close to my heart and identity.
And it is with great sadness that I am faced with a heavy decision to take a step backwards.
Along with mental illness (which I have managed through years of therapy/support and medication) I also have chronic illness (Fibromyalgia and Ankylosing spondolytis) due to the unpredictable nature of these illnesses and a decline in my health - I feel I may have to step down from my roll as a support worker, and engage in work that does not require me to be responsible for the well-being of others.
I take great pride in striving to be an exceptional worker, and a light in the lives of those who need it most. But with the instability my health is now presenting, I no longer feel I can provide the kind of support my clients deserve.
I guess I am posting, seeking support.
And perhaps sharing from others who have experienced this transition?
I am soon to begin sessions with a psychiatrist to work through the acceptance of living with these illnesses and taking a step back from a role that gives my life a sense of great meaning.