Hi Crabby, forgive me for not catching up on all the previous replies, but yes we can't avoid this time of year, we can't pretend it's not here, nor can we hide under the doona, well actually we can, but it won't stop the sand passing through the hourglass.
When you are feeling low you could sit and watch the sand go through for another hour, so when you turn it back over, the day slowly goes.
Your problems are not make believe, we know how you feel because they can tie you in a knot if you ignore them.
It can be difficult to stop a relapse to fall back into a period where our anxiety, fear and depression once again take over, but I have to congratulate you for having a 3 year, now, you have to realise that you're not alone at this time of the year, I join alongside you and there are many other people who have posted in the BB cafe you might like to talk with, I'm sure they would love to hear from you.
I hope to see you and please write back to me anytime you want.
Best wishes.
Geoff.