Beyond Blue helps me to know I'm not alone, and it helps to put my feelings in perspective. Knowing that other people struggle with the same things I do makes me feel like I'm not such a freak. Makes me feel like it's not my fault, I suffer from an illness - I'm not just some weirdo who can't cope. I don't have to pretend to have it all together here... I can just be me.
I do not get triggered by reading about other distress because I figure if they are going through something I would rather know about it and try to support them in some way rather than have them feel like they need to suffer alone. Of course I feel concern for their wellbeing, and sometimes what is written can be upsetting, but again... I'd rather they post on the forum and let people know that they are struggling than not be allowed to share those feelings/what's going on.
I love that BB forums edits our posts if they are getting too explicit or give too many details - that is really good, because it can be easy to go too far. So the edits are a good way to make sure nothing too triggering gets through... But sometimes I feel that we are sometimes too restricted with how much we can share, and therefore don't get a reply that fully addresses our topic/problem/feeling. I received an 'edit' notice recently and I have no idea what I said that stepped over a line, so I hope I don't do it again.
This is slightly off topic, but it is connected. Sorry if it should go somewhere else. But seeing as we are being totally honest, I have to say it doesn't feel very nice seeing an email from you guys in my inbox. I feel like 'I'm so stupid, I screwed up - why do I bother' when all I am trying to do is help people. It's like I've done something wrong even though I've tried to do the right thing and stick to the rules. (Although, I received one today and completely understand why you didn't let it go through. I'm talking about a different email) I know you guys are only looking out for everyone, but so far getting those couple of emails has been the only triggering thing for me, and that's because they played on my lack of self esteem and feelings of worthlessness that lurk at the back of my mind.
It's a difficult balance and I imagine we all give you moderators a heck of a headache some times. But all in all, I think we all appreciate this place and the opportunity it gives us to communicate with people who understand.
I know I am in a better place now than I was when I signed up last year and that is thanks to this community. So thank you Chris and the other moderators for all the hard work you do here to help us out. :)