Absolutely fine to vent your frustrations here :)
I can see things are a bit tough at the minute, and I wanted to let you know that I care.
Might an option be to visit your GP again - or a new one if you didn’t feel sufficient connection with the other one - to discuss what hasn’t worked well for you i relation to previous treatments? I feel like you’re struggling a bit trying to figure things out on your own.
Feel free to get back in touch here.